It is utterly WILD to me to read your posts that indicate your Ao3 stats make you insecure, because you are hands down an incredible writer. In the top three I have ever read online. I will never ever need any other evidence that Ao3 stats are a useless metric than the fact that someone who writes like you ever doubts themselves. You are chef's kiss superb. Please never stop writing.
😳🥹❤️ Thank youuuu, Anon ❤️
I suspect everyone that writes anything, no matter how popular it is, doubts themselves sometimes. I bet if I was a super-successful BNF I'd be worrying that I'd just lucked out by hitting popular tropes (as, indeed, I would have because that's how these things work!) or that it was just a huge fandom or something (again, probably).
I am glad my insecurity is helpful, and I really mean that I'm not being sarky or anything, because we do all need to learn that the stats are meaningless. I've only really learned this by posting as several different people on AO3 who I will assume all write at the same level of quality yet they have very different stats depending on what they post. Almost always lower than my main account, who at this point has a bit name recognition to rely on. What the hell, right? How can my own variants not all be doing the same as each other! Yet all of me have fics on AO3 where I occasionally think "oh, these must be TERRIBLE, look at that kudos ratio!" Even though I know that kudos and the ratio thereof is a pile of nonsense that at best measures how comfortable people are about clicking the little button at the bottom of a fic. We need to worry about this less, which of course includes myself. Whichever myself I am being at the time.
Sometimes I don't even worry that I've accidentally written something bad, I worry that the thing is not bad but just not a thing anyone wants to read, which btw is probably why being weirdly dismissive about short fics gets to me so much - that too would be a case of getting skipped over for what I wrote rather than how I wrote it. The fear of being Too Weird, maybe?
Sorry for rambling a bit here. Thanks again, Anon, and I am glad to be of some help, and also would you marry me? ❤️












