Stay true to yourself.
Hey peeps! So I have a story to share with everyone today. You guys ready?! Ok so this is the story of the first time I got high.
So a few years ago while I was on summer vacation from college, I attended a house warming for one of my friends.
My friend happened to be a chef.
And I was over 21 at this age so I planned on just getting just alil intoxicated.
Well just before we all decided to start drinking my friend pulls out a pan of brownies.
Anyone that knows me personally knows how much of a fat kid I am, especially when it come to chocolate, plus like I said my friend is chef so I just knew these things was about to be bomb.com. So my happy self decides to eat three brownies.
But while I’m eating I realize it has this certain type of taste to it and I can’t figure out what it is. I ask my friend and she tells me it’s a weed brownie.
So I start getting alil scared because I never been high before, but like I said I was on break from college, and everyone was doing it so why shouldn’t I give it a try?
MANNNNNNNNNN when I tell y'all that had to be one of the biggest mistakes of my life, y'all just don’t know.
At first I couldn’t tell that I was high. I went outside on the deck where everyone was, walked to the middle and sat down on the ground. Mind you there were chairs around but I sat on the ground. Then I started staring at the sky for what felt like forever thinking about how big the universe was and how small I was in it. I started to really scare myself, but I became even more frighten when I realized I couldn’t move!
Literally guys I could not get my body to move out this position.
Thankfully my friend at the time came and grabbed me and pulled me up off the ground. When I finally came out of my daze everyone around me was gone. She told me I looked like a lunatic and I had to come where ppl were.
Guys when I tell you I can’t remember for the life of me what people where talking about it is no joke. My mind couldn’t concentrate on anything. Like literally every five seconds my brain had a new thought. I remember rushing to the bathroom trying to make myself throw up. I remember being huddled in the corner of the tub praying that this feeling would go away.
Once I got myself up I had to find someone to help me. But like I said my mind was racing and I couldn’t find my friends. When I finally did find them, everyone was either high or drunk.
Plus I think I was too high to even see straight because all I remember is seeing colors,and shapes. My friends tried to get me to calm down by taking me on a walk, but that just got me even more afraid. Plus my mouth and throat where too dry and every time I tried to talk my tongue got stuck to my lips. Then I remember someone told me you have to shock your self out of being high. So I literally started slapping myself. Like I didn’t give myself little slaps, I mean like literally slapping the shit out myself to the point where my friends had to hold my arms down smh. My friends saw that I was tripping out so they took me up stairs to sleep it off. But when I woke up the next day I was STILL HIGH! I said a prayer to God that day. I said “Dear God if you get me out of this I swear I’ll never get high again”. I couldn’t even eat or drink anything because my mouth was still dry. Anywho another friend of mine drove me home. I tried to act normal and walk my dog, but I was still too high and got partially lost in my neighborhood that I lived in for 20 years smh. So when I finally made it home I see my moms car parked outside our house I scream thank god, and went running in the house.
When my mom saw me she could tell I was alil off so she asked what’s wrong?
Mind you me and my mother have a good relationship but I never could cuss in front of her out of respect let alone tell her I used drugs, but I needed some serious help so I went for it.
I said “Mom, look I’m gonna keep it all the way real with you, ok?”
She looked at me and said ok.
I said “ Mom… I am high SHIT! I AM SO FUCKING HIGH I AM TERRIFIED MOMMY PLEASE HELP ME!
Next thing you know I feel warm liquid running down my face and I realized I was crying. My mom actually laughed at me alil, gave me a glass of milk and told me to sleep it off. Guys I slept for 9 HOURS STRAIGHT! I was still alil high when I woke up but not as bad. Smh dawgggggg! I never got high again!
I can laugh at it now but at the time it was not a funny situation. That’s when I realized everything is not for everybody! The same choices and decisions people for their own lives do not dictate how you should live yours, always stay true to yourself, and know what’s right for you. Well guys thanks for listening lol and I’ll see you next week for another motivational Monday post. 😘✌🏾️.