flamingfran replied to your post: FOR ANYONE WHO THINKS HAVING DEPRESSION IS IN ANY...
I know how this feels. Me, also being the ‘The Artist Relative’, I also get this huge pressure. You want to do something for someone you love, you want to do it so so bad, but you just try to push yourself to do it but you can’t. Its not because you dont want to, its because you mentally feel lile you can’t do it. So really, I really really feel you with that struggle.
The most frustrating thing is that I absolutely do know that I’m capable of doing this on some level, because I’ve done things like this before and, if anything, I’m a better and more competent artist now than I was years ago. By all rights, I very much should be able to complete this project and I feel like I don’t have an excuse for struggling so much.
Listen, I know my brother and his family have their own plans to make something for our mother, and I absolutely cannot let him be better than me. In any way, under any circumstances. He’s already the Successful One between us and I can’t let him show me up here, too. I’m supposed to be good at this stuff.
This is a living nightmare, lmao
