pairing: bts x 8th member, bts x female member
warning: panic attack, a bit detailing
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Honey felt sick to her stomach. She knew it wasn’t the flu or anything like that. During this time of year, her mental health always took a toll on her, but for now she kept herself under control to her best abilities since she was backstage. Today’s venue was Rosebowl stadium. It’s gonna be filled with more people than she had ever seen. There were two hours left until she had to go onstage.
She was lying down on the sofa in their waiting room. Knots filled her stomach as she held herself in a fetal position. Her eyes were closed until she felt a presence near, even then she didn’t open them.
The soft voice belonged to Hoseok. His hand brushes through her hair, “What’s wrong?”
She wanted to answer, she really did, but the words never came out. Instead her breathing rapidly increased, the aniexty was fully in affect now.
She got up abruptly and heads straight for the private bathroom, locking herself in. Her cries filled the room as she falls into the corner.
Pity, pity. Look at this pitiful situation.
Wow Honey, how are you an idol? You’re sitting here bawling your eyes out while thousands of fans are waiting in line.
She looks up seeing visions of dark shadowy figures standing over her body. She whimpers, “L-Leave me alone..please.” The voices kept getting louder and louder, teasing her about the sold out arena being packed triggering her aniexty more.
Gosh, you’re so sad. They’re gonna hate you, they all will, even your brothers. No one is here for you. They don’t care about you in this group.
Honey was crying hysterically, barely breathing. Lound banging can be heard from far away as she blinks slowly. The voices laughed as she struggles, the loud pounding was soon in her head thumping away causing her to groan as she holds her head.
The bathroom door opens up and a figure walks in. Honey couldn’t bring herself to lift up her head, even if she did, her vision was blurry from her tears. A shiver runs through her body as she feels someone holding her in their arms.
“Listen to me baby. I’m right here...Yoongi’s here. Just inhale and exhale slowly as you listen to my voice.”
She shakily inhales deeply and exhales slowly as she listens to him speak. She heard a different pair of footsteps approach her, the person gently rubs her leg.
“Jung-Eun?” It was Jin, speaking in a very gentle and soft tone as he uses her real name to gain her attention.
She sniffles a few times and opens her mouth, “Don’t make me go out there please.” She pleads as her tears continuing falling down her cheeks. Honey’s heart rate began increasing again even though Jin and Yoongi attempted to calm her down.
Honey was too hysterical at that point, giving herself a panic attack and eventually passing out from exhaustion from crying too much.
Her eyes didn’t open until she woke up in her hotel room. She looks around and sees the boys. Jungkook must of felt her eyes on them as he motions everyone else to her.
Jimin crawls by her side and hugs her tightly, “How do you feel?” Honey smiles faintly enjoying the comfort of Jimin’s arms. Her eyes close again for a bit before reopening them again watching the others smile at her. Her eyes glance between Taehyung and Namjoon at the clock, it was the next day!
“The concert! What happened?” She looks at Namjoon a bit panicked. He holds his hand up, signaling her to calm down.
“We canceled it. Today’s concert is canceled too. None of us felt comfortable with performing having fun while you were going through an episode.”
Honey looks down but Jungkook lifts her chin up, “Don’t you dare feel bad about it. We wanted to do it to make sure you were alright.”
“And army understands as well.” Tae spoke up with a smile as he sits on the other side of her. “We‘ll just figure out a date to reschedule it.”
After awhile, she was left alone in her hotel room. Even though she knew it was a bad thing to do, she grabs her phone to check social media. Of course she was the number one trending Kpop topic on Twitter. Various hashtags created by army filled the worldwide trending chart.
The sweet posts made her smile. Whenever she was down all she needed was her seven brothers and the millions of fans who she believes to be her second family at this point to always be by her side.
