2017
2017 was a very successful year. I graduated from high school in June, passed the entry exam for my study at university in July, turned 19 and got in a amazing relationship in August and started uni in September.
Everything worked out in the end and I am very grateful for all these things. But from January until June my life consisted of worrying. I didn’t know if this guy I liked a lot was serious about us or if he was just another unfaithful idiot. He is an idiot... a very loving, humorous, attractive, intelligent, caring idiot. My favorite idiot <3 The other thing I was worrying about was the entry exam. I was training so hard for it but I felt like I was never good enough. I knew that there were going to be so many fit and talented people... too many. But at the day of the exam I realized that I was one of them and it felt very good. When I received the letter two weeks later I cried for a long time. I was alone at home and I was sitting on the ground, crying and sobbing out of bliss. I will never forget this moment.
From September until the end of the year nothing really happened. I lost a lot of friends but I don’t really care because the important ones stayed and will stay for a much longer time. Also I spent a lot of the time at my boyfriend’s appartment and felt very sorry for leaving my parent’s alone that often.
2017 was a successful year but I’m less happy with who I am than I was at the beginning of the year. Growing up isn’t easy.