#forroger

[personalwords]

I AM NOTHING:

Last night I had to wait

till you were done with her

to sleep in your arms

I heard her breathing your name

as I lay still in

the bed beside yours

as if I weren’t there at all

I heard you tell her the same things you tell me “you..are mine”

tears roll down my face

and soak the pillowcase

but I stayed quiet

for your sake

not to blow your cover

you’re finished with her and just like that

she’s nothing

you tell her to leave and that’s my cue

I poke my head out from

the bed beside yours

I roll over to you

tangling my legs between yours

As I grow warm

cuddled in the hollow if your chest

and in this moment

I am yours

and even in my dreams

her scent still stains Your skin

you wake up with her in the morning and

I wake in mine just like

I am nothing.

[personalwords]

SHOTGUN:

I try not to speak the words that I feel

when it’s all thrown out in the open this

rush of feelings

are made real

I wouldn’t want to steal

this opportunity from myself

by saying something heavy

that I knew just wouldn’t help

hard to say to myself

“he doesn’t have the best intentions”

Hard to prove to myself

that I’m the one I should be missing

because at the start it was a new fun

finally filling the space with solutions

but with the temporary fix comes

wild cherry bliss and

a shotgun

[deducingchroma]

Today, we spread some of Roger's ashes on the center X at Rochester. Roger, you were such a light and a pillar of everything the Bushwackers strive to be. I miss you more than I can express, and my home is empty without that grin. But we know that you are with us, and now part of you is in one of your favorite place. I'll keep breathing, Roger. I promise. For you. 💙❤️ #forroger #bushwackers #wherewebelong (at Capelli Sport Stadium)