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+ @idjunseo / @idxdannyone person my muse wants to spend christmas with, and why.
there’s only one person san wants to spend his christmas with. a reciprocated thing. but who else than jowi? forged family, by choice. a feeding of understood and unhealthy habits. but he feels like he needs that, that understanding. had felt lost before they’d met. before they’d twisted around each other and sunk, blissfully, deeper down into their own twisted idea of self-help. anchors. but that’s not how san views her. jowi’s a necessity. maybe it’s a time for romance, but san’s not so sure he believes in that. romance. sometimes it turns at his stomach. even his own definition of love is a largely mutated thing. so he’d pick jowi, of they both had the day off. and they’d get wasted. maybe they’d watch a christmas movie and stop reading the subtitles halfway through. maybe they’d drink more. but that’s what he would pick, the same way he’d only picked her when his birthday rolled around. sometimes it feels like she’s all he really has, when push comes to shove.