I'm so stressed out 😥 I am just stuck. I don't know what I'm doing. I was starting to have a plan sorted out and now it's all down the drain. I turned down a full time job opportunity for nothing and now I'm left with shit. The school I desperately want to go to costs about $10,000 a semester.....which I most definitely can't afford. Looks like I'm not going to Ventura after all..I was terrified of going in September in the first place, but I was starting to get used to the idea, especially at the chance of pursuing my dream. I just want to get started on working toward my goal. I just want to make my dream a reality without money as a fucking barrier 😥I'm so stuck. I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this WHY DO THEY MAKE IT SO HARD FOR THEIR FUTURE LEGACIES TO GO TO SCHOOL. IT MAKES NO SENSE. WE ARE THE FUTURE. WE DESERVE THE OPPORTUNITY TO GO TO SCHOOL WITHOUT I GIANT FUCKING PRICE TAG ON IT. HOW CAN YOU PUT A PRICE ON KNOWLEDGE. PEOPLE WHO WANT TO LEARN DESERVE TO LEARN. PERIOD. THEY SAY EVERYONE HAS EQUAL OPPORTUNITY IN AMERICA TO BE SUCCESSFUL AND TO GET EDUCATION. BULLSHIT. Bullshit. I'm just gonna keep hoping for a miracle. I'm gonna keep working my ass off and hoping that maybe someone one day will come up to me and say "I want to pay for your education". I would seriously ball my eyes out.