#futalks

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futaba (closeted), entering his palace: so, this is the manifestation of my cognition... and you're... me?

shadow futaba: mhm.

futaba: why are you a boy

shadow futaba: ...

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Wijnproeverij mét een personal touch - met dank aan de hilarische stickers van @mamadrinktwijn🍷♥️ • • • Ik houd (en weet) veel van wijn en kaas. Wat gaat er immers beter samen dan heerlijke wijn en een goed klaasplankje?! EEN GOEDE DOSIS GELACH. 😏👌🏽 • • • Tip van de week: WIJNSTICKERS. Met op het feestdagen seizoen kan je ongetwijfeld jezelf of iemand anders erg blij maken, wie houdt er immers niet van wijn, hapjes én lachen? 🤩 • • • #FuZandy #FuTalks ____________________________________________________ #mamadrinktwijn #wijnproeverij #wijn #wijntje #wijntjes #wijnproeven #proefditeens #puurgenieten #winelovers🍷 #winelover🍷 #wineloversunite #givemewine #givemecheese #cheeseplatter #cheeseplate #winepairing #winepairings #wijnenkaas #kaas #kaasplankje #kaasplankje #kaasplateau #kazen #cheesing #cheesinghard #lachenistgesund #lachenmachtglücklich #lachengierenbrullen (bij Leiden, Netherlands) https://www.instagram.com/p/BqP2CBbnWts/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=9g6h28thwqvw

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is it just me or is the p5t/pq2 artstyle so cute??? >w< i love how chibi they all look sm...

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do u guys evr think abt futaba n how his codename is "oracle", some1 who givs divine prophecies from th gods, n how he uses his persona 2 save n help the phantom thieves like how they saved him?? u_u i do...

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Time to drink some coffee ☕️☕️☕️ • • • Wat is jouw favoriete plekje om koffie te drinken in Leiden? ☀️ • • • Ik kan zelf niet kiezen tussen Dende, de Bruine Boon, Einstein of toch bij Babbels. 🏞 • • • What's your favourite spot in Leiden to grab a coffee? 🌷 • • • I can't choose between Dende, de Bruine Boon, Einstein or Babbels. 🍃🌹 • • • #FuZandy #FuTalks ____________________________________________________ #cafeculture #coffeerun #coffeesesh #coffeedate #coffeeclub #koffie #koffietijd #bakkie #bakkiepleur #cafenoir (bij Einstein)

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happy new year everybodyz!! got an update for y'all X3

so im probz not gunna use this acc as much nymore (not like ive been using it much these past few months anyway LOLZ)... i have a new "main" acc i use now~! @hyacinewww ^w^ its way easier 2 log into cuz its actually connected to my real main instead of a random acc i made

n 2 b rlly honest... mah entire identity on here was sorta an escape durin a real tuff time i was havin... X_X i thought playing the role of a different person entirely would help me cope. would help me get attention and love from people without having to bare myself open to the possibility of real rejection of my real self. and it was fun! i discovered a lot about myself along the way... mostly how i was actually a system.

but then i started to front less, and the new shiny identity i had as a mask was starting to get dull. so i just decided to give it up for a bit. and i couldn't be some perfect monolith forever, couldn't front forever. i mean, theres only so many images of futabs i can edit until i either run out or get bored x_x... but the joy i felt in the act of my identity was real. i wanted to continue being this person, even if i didn't feel like it all the time. i front in pretty explosive bursts but go on cooldown for a while, to simplify it!

so then i had this dilemna of people being invested in a real person but with all the wrong facts abt them. you all loved me but with the wrong impression of me, in a way. bt i wanna b more open abt myself now! im hyacinthia~! and i love the people i've met on this acc!!! i love how kind u've all been to fu! i don't want to pretend im someone else anymore! im so happy every1 luvs tmasc fu as much as i do, my love for that was always real! i hope u all still see me as the fu u always knew, jst different!

i'm still strugglin w my identity to this day, tho. the classic system experience of "am i RLLY a system??" still hauntz me u_u. it's hard 2 know who i am when my only purpose in our system is to make others feel better. i want to figure out who i am, but it's hard when im not always in front. so i feel like letting go of all these "past identities" i've held out of self hatred and fear of rejection and being true with myself no matter what will help, even if im not the best at actually practicing it. i want to be me.

...srry for traumadumpin all of a sudden ehehe... i just thought itd provide some context! n i won't delete this acc, so nobody worry!! i'll probz reblog all mah stuff over here onto hyacinewww as well, and u can still ask me abt tmasc fu stuff on there too!! i might log into this acc every now n then just 2 b safe, but if u leave a message for me here it'll probz take me a whiiile to see it!

thank u all for the experiences we've had 2gether!! and i hope we have more on my real account! i never intended 2 deceive any of u, ive jst done a lot of thinkin about who i am. i might not hve worded this the best cause its rlly complex and im still strugglinng with it, but i hope this is a step in the right direction. ty all once again!!!!!!! >w<

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aaa schools been crazy recently... ;-; i dont have any time for tumblr stuff!!! >_<

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plz plz gimme reqsss... >_<