hey hon! i hope you're having a good day!
Okay, since you’re one of my faves, Imma rant at you a little, cause my day was oddly horrible, and it’s like, I KNOW why it was horrible, but something bad happened today and I kinda DISASSOCIATED from myself after that, so my body keeps telling me, ‘lol, what’s wrong, booboo?’ and I’m like, ‘bitch, you KNOW what’s wrong’ and my brain is like, ‘lol, nah, that didn’t really happen, you have an active imagination, my boo,’ and my own brain is gaslighting me into thinking nothing really happened and I’m simply grumpy for no reason.
Okay, now, that makes it sound like I like, idk, chopped my arm off or something, nothing so bad as that, don’t worry, but earlier, I was painting something, but like, I have ADD, so I NEED to watch something while I do it, or it’s not okay (I watch tv while doing things, either on my phone or laptop, but I GOTTA, or I can’t do the thing) and so I was watching something, and I THOUGHT I was on the ball on stuff, and I got up to wash the paintbrush I was using, and when I came back, there’s a bottle of tipped over paint on my couch cause I hadn’t even realized I PUT it there, and I had to cannibalize my phone case to rescue my phone (it was fine, but I needed it out of the case to clean it, and like, the case has literally been stuck on since I got the phone itself and IDK why but I had to like, pull half of it off to get my phone out) and like, suddenly my brain is like, ‘..........that didn’t REALLY happen, lol, bro, why you worrying?’ and I’m like, ‘you little shit’ and it’s really annoying me.
Like, it’s not even that big of a deal, the paint was HELLA thick, so it got on the couch yeah, but it didn’t soak into anything and ruin it, all I need to do is wait for it to fully dry and use water and a little soap to get it off (it’s not safe to put under water cause it washes right off of most things, so it’ll come off) and I didn’t even ruin anything, the most annoying thing is that the paint itself is fairly expensive, and even then, it’s not like I was planning on painting a wall with it, but my brain is like, *douses self with gasoline and gets out matches* ‘wow, our lives suck’ and I’m like, ‘ugh.’
Also, my jaw kind of hurts, but that’s not really something I can help.(Legit tho, can you get arthritis in your jaw, because this is what it felt like when I got it in my knees and ankles, so it’s very possible.)
On the other hand, ranting about this ACTUALLY did help a little, so I really hope you don’t mind. Whoever says complaining doesn’t help, is a fucking idiot.
