i can't remember if i ever came out in my canon, but i hope that my lee at least accepted me if i did. i know he would, but i can never be a hundred percent sure.
anyways, i miss him. in a way, he changed my life during the chunin exams. i was so bitter back then, so full of hate and sadness, and i still am, but i learned that i don't have to be alone. that it's not an inherent characteristic of mine, just a self-fulfilling curse. no one ever treated me as anything other than a threat. when he asked me out, i didn't understand what he meant. it's a good thing lee was always blunt about that sort of stuff. i think that's what finally made me confront the fact that i'm a girl. a flower can't bloom until it's watered, that's what he said when i told him i wasn't made to be loved, or to love in return. that the only one i was capable of loving was myself, and that, in return, i was the only one capable of loving me. but he never gave up on me. that was what i never understood about him. it was like he was incapable of calling it quits. only a boy as stubborn as that could love a girl as broken as me.
- gaara
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