it’s a very difficult era in which to be a person, just a real, actual person, instead of a collection of personality traits selected from an endless automat of characters. and if all of us are play-acting, there can be no such thing as a soul mate, because we don’t have genuine souls. it had gotten to the point where it seemed like nothing matters, because I’m not a real person and neither is anyone else. i would have done anything to feel real again.












