#glad; raphael

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GLAD; Raph (Stay)

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“Raph, I think I'm going to go.” you piped up. Raph stopped chasing Mikey,

“Wait,” He jumped over their shabby couch and landed in front of you. “don’t you wanna hang out a little longer.” You looked around at his brothers uncomfortably. “We’ll go somewhere they can’t bother us.”

“Yeah, I guess.” You replied hesitantly. Raphael protectively grabbed onto your hand as he turned around to scold his brothers.

“We’re going to my room, no one interrupt us!” 

“Interrupt what?” Mikey wiggled his eyebrows embarrassing Raph.

“Mikey,” He warned with a low grumble,

“Right.” Said mikey before he walked off. Raphael rolled his eyes and steered you towards his room where you two could finally be alone. He wanted to ask you something and having his brothers around wasn’t helping. You blushed as soon as he took your hand in his. You felt frozen but your legs still somehow moved towards his room. His palm felt much softer than you had expected but was still calloused from years of misuse. You stared at your conjoined hands and Raphael realized what he had done. He couldn’t believe you hadn’t pulled away at the texture of his fingers. It was almost a relief to let go as he sat on his own bed. He missed the feel of your small palm in his though and longed to hold it again. You could see how pensive Raphael was as you sat next to him,

“What’s wrong Raphie?” You asked, reaching to caress his face. He tried to hide a smile,

“You know I hate it when you call me that.” Oh, but he loved it. He loved your little nicknames for him, as embarrassing as it was when you did it in front of his brothers. He loved the way you smelled and the way your eyes twinkled when you got excited. He thought that maybe he loved you. 

“I’ll stop if you really want me to.” You pouted, teasing him a little. 

“Can I ask you something?” He was suddenly serious. 

“Anything Raph,” You smiled at him and it gave him the courage he needed. 

“I want ya to be my girl.” He stared at you and the longer you were silent, the harder it became to breathe. 

Be his girlfriend or Get to know him better ?

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the Great Love And Downfall; Raphael

“Me?” Raphael shook his head in surprise before composing himself. He looked around the room at his brothers cockily and smirked. “I mean, I told you so.” He couldn’t help but let his smirk turn into a grin. You liked HIM. The thought of your small frame enveloped in his oversized arms as the smell of peaches filled his nostrils thrilled him, but he kept his cool and let a stony expression take over his face again. You smiled at Raphael while your cheeks burned. Your attention had always been drawn to him, and once you had talked to him, you knew you were hopeless. The way he smiled at you when he went too long without seeing you, or how gentle he tried to be with you had always made your heart flutter and now he knew. It felt like they had ambushed you all at once, but you were glad it was out in the open. You watched Raphael’s face for a reaction and were happy when you saw him grinning so widely. Leonardo patted Raphael on the back, but couldn’t help but feel a twang of sorrow in his chest. He wanted to be the one to hold and caress you at night, but that was your decision to make. He thought about all the potential moments that had been lost and pain bubbled in his chest. Even now, you looked beautiful, almost irresistible. He was glad for all the years of training that required self-control, he could use it now. Donatello stood in the background, just as shocked as everyone else. Raphael? Was that it? No reason, no explanation, just swift and utter heartbreak? He began to tap his foot impatiently,

“Why?” He asked, seemingly out of nowhere. The question startled you. 4 pairs of eyes glared at you, ready for an answer. Your blush only intensified as you opened your mouth to speak. 

“Well… because he is usually nice to me, even though he’s mean to everyone else.” You paused but they still seemed unsatisfied. “um, he also cares about the people he loves a lot, and he’s y’know,” you paused again, this time to work up some courage. “he’s pretty… nice looking.” You looked at the ground, avoiding eye contact as much as possible. Raph licked his lips as he looked at you. You actually liked him, and he couldn’t believe it. And here you stood, telling him he was nice looking. He could practically punch a hole in the wall out of pure joy. Michelangelo bit his lip anxiously, unwilling to give up so easily.

“But what about this dazzling personality?” He pointed to his face and flexed his biceps. You had to admit Mikey had made the choice difficult. Raphael pushed Mikey.

“She said she likes me didn’t she?” Raph rolled his shoulders back and cocked his jaw. 

“I heard her, I was just making sure she didn’t bump her head,” Raphael growled before he took off, chasing Mikey. Michelangelo ran as Raphael yelled obscenities after him. “See how immature he is?” Yelled Mikey as he zoomed past you. You stood in the middle of the living room, shamefully looking at Leo and Donnie. You knew them well enough to be able to tell they were disappointed. You really didn’t want to hurt anyone, but you felt like they had forced it out of you. You considered your gym bag that was laying on the floor, wondering if you should just leave and let them talk it out. 

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GLAD; Raph (Leave)

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Raphael finally caught up to Mikey, punching him square in the jaw as soon as he did.

“Can’t say much now, can ya?” He yelled. Michelangelo rolled himself on top of Raphael and punched him back. Mikey usually tried to avoid throwing punches, but he had started it. Raphael smashed his head into Mikey’s and pushed him back onto the ground. Raph was quickly on his feet and drawing his sai’s. “Let me teach you a lesson squirt. Mikey’s nostrils flared,

“Don’t fucking call me that!” Raph had called Mikey a squirt since he realized Mikey was smaller than all of them. It was demeaning. He pulled his nunchuks from his belt as Leo stepped in between them,

“Now don’t you think there’s a better way to solve this?” Raph and Mikey both rolled their eyes.

“Shut up Leo!” They said in unison. He threw his hands up in defeat and backed away. Meanwhile, you were already halfway down the nearest sewer tunnel. Fuck this, you thought, fuck this so much. You hated the dark tunnels, with scarce lighting that was far and few in between. 

“[Y/N]!?” You heard Raphael yell from a distance.  Oh thank god, you thought.

“Raph!” You yelled back and he came running to the sound of your voice. “Fuck I hate it down here.” You should see him flash his pearly whites. 

“Then come back with me.” He asked. Raphael had just found out you liked him before you had been snatched from him so suddenly. You huffed,

“I just don’t want to come in between you and your family.” You looked back towards their lair and knew that their bond was more important than you. 

“We can just go straight to my room and no one’ll bother us.” Raphael was apprehensive to invite her into his room, but there weren't many other places where they could get complete privacy. 

“Yeah.... I guess.” You walked back to the lair with him, brushing against his hand every now and again. You had never held his hand, in fact, you had never had much physical contact at all. You took a leap of faith and intertwined your fingers with his. Raph gasped at the contrast of your skin against his. He held onto your hand tightly, inside though he was panicking. He had never held your hand before, what if he broke it? HOw FrAgILE WAs it? Raphael tried not to hurt you as you entered his room. You sat quietly on his bed and his heart thumped. He had shamefully fantasized about you in his room before, but he had never thought it would happen. 

“Sorry about my dumb ass brothers.” He apologized. 

“Wow is big bad red apologizing?” You teased. Raphael had always shown you a softer side of him, it had always been so easy to talk to each other. Now you knew he liked you and he knew that you liked him, so what was stopping you from asking him out?

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