#goodbyeuphoria

[theafternoonhats]

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lacerations, and drugs, and smoking habits your drinks,your boys, your sexual habits dont burn up burn up burn up supernova we'll be together for the next 3 billion years

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i have a lot of years to get used to your skin

[theafternoonhats]

to the girl i'd stop the world for

she's worth the pain. she's the type of girl that will push you to wake in the morning, and stay with you for the rest of the night. she'll take you to the peak of mountains you never thought you'd be able to climb. but she can also drag you to the depths you stayed so safe not to come by. she's luck, in the sense that you'd never come over someone you'd love too much. she's the type of girl guys would fight over. she's the type of girl they'd kill over for the thought of having her hands after. she's the reason you'd pray for golden apples. she's the type of girl that goddesses would curse for having soul and beauty that matches theirs. and when you do have her, there's nowhere else to go but up. you'll have mornings of bliss just with the thought that she's yours. you'd feel invincible. her heart would be on fire, and your job is to feed it with coal and let the blaze flicker and lick with desire. and all you really have to do is keep her by. hold her hands. make her feel that she's worth every wonder in the world a billion fold. and if you cant, you try again. there's nowhere else to go but up. jealousy is a fickle thing, no one immune to. even to gods, and goddesses. and how much more are we mortals to such. forget the money, forget robbing banks, with her the only safe that matters is where you put her heart. its scary because anywhere won't matter. because she holds the key herself. and itd be the most painful thing to know if she gives it to another.

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how much would you love her?

i'd love her too much, and i do

[theafternoonhats]

remember when you fell inlove with me? that was the best day of my life

[theafternoonhats]

i was stuck to the question if love did exist where i saw my friends fall, love, and cry out their hearts and through those years i asked if it was me that was wrong as to why i wasnt falling for anyone friends, flirts, MU's, and none of them even near to what the books tell me. none of them until i met you. and no its not just because you were pretty, or that you wore a pink polo, or that your hair stood out. i felt the universe agree with me for once, that you are special. that you are what stars give birth to. you are what songs and poetry live for. you are coffee shops, and tragedy in a bestselling novel. you are what i felt missing in my life. you are love. in its most curious form. in its most explosive form. in its most corrupt and nurturing form. in its most purest form. you are the most beautiful thing i have ever laid eyes on. you are the most beautiful thing i will ever lay eyes on.

[theafternoonhats]

maybe it was dark before maybe it was silence             or cries and muffled sobs

maybe it was pain before maybe it was deep             or shallow but never the less felt

maybe it was lonely before maybe it was depressing             or sad or anything that feel like stars exploding

maybe it was her maybe it was me             or us that made it seem so different

maybe its her neck maybe its her eyes             or the way she cups my face and kisses me

maybe its my voice maybe its my arms             or all the things i try to make her see

maybe its the hugs maybe its the kisses             or all the nights we spent together

maybe its the mornings maybe its the good nights             or the i love yous i slip into my sentences everytime i have the chance to

you make time go slower i want you beside me             and its the only thing i know without a maybe

[theafternoonhats]

ways to say goodbye : 

1.

and even with stiff arms and cold skin

id still hug you as tight as i could

and id remind you that you are my sun

my stars

the clouds that cover the moon

the warmth underneath my sheets

the good nights and good bye's

the hello's and good mornings

the story i tell past friends

the history id want to be kept in

the dips and the ups of my mind

the other half of my lips

you are gravity

you are magic

you are every little thing that makes the universe work

and every little thing that makes it stop

all fitting snugly in between my arms

you are a goddess

and im the luckiest person to have ever touched your skin

that might not have been used to being held gently

not that it has to

im not letting go

and im afraid the only way to show that i need you,

and to show how much you make me long for you

are my hands clasped tightly on your wrist

whereas even if i let go

you'd see marks that show i never really left you

and never really wanted to

[theafternoonhats]

i wish i could call it holding hands but holding hands means so little compared to what i feel when i hold yours and how our hands seem to find a way to fit each other squeezing each others felt like a pulse that comes so rarely but feels like electricity when passing by and how it seems to have its own universe inside warm safe a whole universe of stars, galaxies, planets, contellations, worlds that must have so much wonder or it wouldnt feel this good and to think that its only there, it only exists when im holding you

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