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THE STORY OF US Part1

Hey everyone! It's been a while since I wrote something personal with my tumblr. I've been battling it in my head if I should share this tragic experience that I have encountered.

I got my heart broken. Yes, I know I'm a drama queen. Like everybody gets their heart broken, nothing's new. But it's been what? 5 months already and wounds are still pretty fresh. I thought for a while I was doing better that I can go and be happy single and don't give a damn about that jerk.  Apparently I'm still affected by just the smallest details, smallest strings that are connecting us.

I'm pretty positive about life don't get me wrong. I'm still pretty jolly at work and my outlook in life but there's just things you gotta get out of your head because you've just reached that breaking point you know. :( So yeah, this is the story of me and my almost lover..

US? It all started with him. He had this "feelings" for me before I did. I never got to notice him only until he said it to me face to face. Wait, rewind rewind. Let's start from how we met.

I met him as a co-trainee in the hospital I am now working in. He was the president of our whole batch. March 2012, wallflower I was. I liked it that way. I was just one of the boys, the girl who goes with the flow. I had a boyfriend back then, my feeling towards him was on the rocks. Well, my batch mates/ co-trainees knew that. But I was still struggling to bring back what could be mended so my 6 year relationship didn't end there yet. I had a crush in our batch there too. Eye candy, promise nothing too serious. Just infatuation. And Mr. President knew that. I remember he was one of those people giving me that meaningful smiles whenever I just had this high school moments towards my crush. Who would have know I could get more serious than that towards him?

3 month after training, our batch decided to go for an outing. We went to Canyon Cove, a beach resort in Batangas. That night we did a lot of crazy stuff, I don't really need to elaborate. Just trust me when I say it was pretty cray cray for a wall flower like me. So yeah, our batch grew closer. And fortunately, someone noticed me and I wasn't a wallflower anymore. Mr. President had a crush on me. This I didn't get to know until he said his feelings to me so don't get excited. I noticed more attention towards me from him but I never tried to put meaning. I figured, it was just the alcohol.

So yeah, after our outing we got employed to the hospital. It was the first nursing job for most of us so we were all dead serious for the first 2 months I guess. Adjusting to being a staff and getting all the responsibilities in the wards. Mr. President and I were in the same area by the way. And by then, our so called "batch mate" relationship became "close friends" because we shared same experiences and our personalities just clicked with each other.

My crush in our batch didn't matter anymore. I just didn't get that "kilig"/ high school puppy love feeling anymore. I told you it was infatuation! My relationship with my boyfriend back then was getting batter I have to admit. Our efforts to save it happened to extend it for another 4 months or so. I never thought of breaking up with him just yet. We were becoming happy again. So the closeness I had with Mr. President was just something to be cherished. I had a good boy best bud I could count on. That was all it was, even though our closeness was pretty obvious and our colleagues started to tease us because of it. Little did I know he was just stopping himself from telling his feelings because I had a boyfriend. 

Let me continue our love story tomorrow. But yeah, this is our story so far..   

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Hi, I have a question about your accutane journey. I've watched your Youtube videos and my acne is similar to yours mild with uneven skintone. I was wondering what dosage you saw the mot improvement in your acne the 10 mg or the 30 mg a day. And how long it took you to get totally clear and for your skin tone to even out. Thanks!

hello :) Thanks for watching my video. The highest dosage I had was 40mg and it was then I noticed that my acne was slowly fading. I only had 40mg for 1 month then after that it decreased every month by 10 mg until it was 10mg every other day then 10mg 2x a week. My skin cleared up by month 5. Then the skin tone decrease as the dosage decreased as well. But I think the evening of the skin was because of the creams I was prescribed with accutane.

I'll explain it in a video I'll make soon. I'm just gathering before and after pics for proof of my accutane journey. Hope I answered your question :D

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Nursing voyage 2012: How charting can be a pain in the ass.

THANK GOD IT'S FRIDAY!!! Oh my gosh am I exhausted. I'm finally getting a 2-day break from the toxic world of the hospital. I am so going to make the most of it because for sure, nothing will change when I come back on Monday. Still the same shit. LOL. Everybody needs a break so that when you come back you are ready to fight to your highest potential. 

Don't get me wrong, I love my job. Nursing is my passion. The physical and mental aspect of it is draining but emotionally, socially and spiritually I have never been more fulfilled. I don't know why but I still get to smile even if I am time constrained and juggling with what to do first. I guess that's what makes you know that you are in the right track, you are happy.

Why am I this tired? I just happen to be handling 8 patients. Like WTF! Take note, that's just the start of the average workload. You can actually extend and have 10-12 patients.  Boy am I going to loose weight once I get to try having 10 patients. I can't even get a hold of my 8 patients! So many stuff needs to be done that the 8 hour shift is not enough.

Time management will be your best friend in this profession and honestly, I haven't gotten a grasp of it yet. Even though I have a schedule in my head of what I will do by  the hour, it just goes mixing with additional things during the shift like doctors' orders, patients concerns, closing bills, accomplishing papers.

Like seriously, how the hell do senior nurses do it? I am like in awe of how calm in work the seniors I shadow move. It's intimidating and embarrassing to be delayed in your work.

I get to accomplish routine task, monitor, get to assess and give intervention but that freakin' charting? Boy am I in great dillema of that. Charting for 6-8 patients probably takes me 30mins-1 hour. And take note, I rarely have that spare time. You basically can do it in less time but the quality won't be any good. So you try to accomplish it fast but with the quality that you are aiming. The problem? It's almost the end of the shift and the in coming nurse is already waiting for the end of the shift report. Now that adds pressure to you, again. Ah! If only I can do it faster without compromising the quality.

But hey, I guess pressures like this is not new to a novice nurse like me. All of the people I complain about my slowness and frustrations with charting all have the same reaction. "It's NORMAL! You are just starting and you'll get used to it in time. It's better to dwell more time in something so that you won't compromise it" . 

I really hope that one day I'd look back and say the same thing to a trainee having a hard time. As of now, I just have to live in the moment and not sweat the small stuff. The more time I give to improve myself the more potential for growth as an individual and as a professional. 

Cheers to those who are in their first job, adjusting and surviving! I wish you the best and that you gain confidence by the minute! You can do it and you are not alone. :D

xoxo, 

MDEE, RN

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Can't wait to get my laptop next week so I can go blogging continuously at last.

Sorry if it has been a while. I have lots to tell just need to figure out how to manage my time though.

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Blog on how my week went out with fitness coming up.

But first, I need to fetch my aunt at the airport. I'm so excited to see my cousin/Goddaughter :)

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Note to self: "Don't have perfect be the enemy of good"

I got this from a book Blair Fowler (juicystar07) made a review on. It just struck me. I need to find this book. I think i'll learn from it alot.

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Twin (gotnothingbutlovemd), my twin, my bestfriend Mdee Merry Christmas twintoyyy!! haha XD Thank you as always, I won't state everything here because this will turn out to be an essay orz haha we both know what I'm saying. We know each other that well right? You're awesome, you should know it. I am happy that you're close to whatever it is you're achieving right now. I know you'll be successful in it ;D for 3 years I spent christmas with you, great moments! ♥ I wish for more years in this friendship. I love you to infinity. I hope you like this. Happy Christmas and have a Properous New year! ♥

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I've been wanting to upload this gif for the longest time. Here's me testing if it works. I'll try to upgrade to CS5 so that I could do better edits. Yehey!