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I personally love What A Year And What A Night 💕 2, 3, 11

I’m glad you liked it! That was such a fun Harry to write, tbh.

2. What scene did you first put down?The first one! I’m telling you, it’s my Process. So I had Zayn sitting in that coffee shop all annoyed and tense. I wanted to set up immediately how Zayn approaches situations, the differences in their body language, how Harry moves through a room.

3. What’s your favorite line of narration?Oh I know exactly what my favorite is. Because I love imagining Zayn staring at Harry’s hands (we have so many videos and GIFs of Zayn staring at Harry, so by all means, supply your favorites here.) I love the idea of Zayn focusing on Harry’s hands, after the massage on the balcony.

Zayn sits quietly as they talk, as Harry tells Sara about the sweet old man who came into the coffee shop earlier, the one he works in after class some days, the stories he told him about his old army days. Sara listens, that look of awe on her face, as Harry tells her all about John W. State. Zayn tries to pay attention, to listen to the words Harry is saying, but he can’t because all he can focus on now are Harry’s hands. He’s always talked with them, waved his delicate little fingers around when he gets excited. But now that Zayn knows how strong they are, how so not delicate they actually turned out to be, he can’t look away. Harry wears these really dumb rings, rings he hasn’t told them the meaning of yet because everything in Harry’s life has meaning. The flash of silver catches on the light, and Zayn feels like he’s trying to watch a flying bee buzz around his head, only catching glimpses of it every few seconds.

11. What do you like best about this fic?Harry! He’s so sure of himself. He’s self aware, unapologetic, soft around the edges, but also hard in his convictions. He could be a little flighty, skipped class, didn’t have much direction as far as school… but he knew who he was. And he knew he wanted Zayn, all the way. He knew the effect he had on Zayn, and always knew how to bring Zayn down when he got too anxious.

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Slide& 5!!

Slide!

5. What part was hardest to write?Chapter 2 was hella hard for me. I kept telling Jasmine that I feared it was boring. I said to her over and over, to check it out and make sure it wasn’t dull as shit. I also struggled with Rachel and how she would approach Harry. I thought about having her over to Zayn’s apartment for dinner, but that felt like too much.

But in general, I worried chapter 2 was super boring. So it felt like it took me a long time to get through it and make it interesting.

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hi:)) every single thing + 4!!!!

Hey you!

4. What’s your favorite line of dialogue?Oooh this is always my favorite question, anytime I do one of these things. I need to have a think.

Okay I have more than one, here are my favorite lines/exchanges:

Harry hugs him tighter and realizes that Louis smells like his childhood. “So how many are we looking at here,” Louis steps back to hold Harry’s cheeks between his palms. “I saw a camera downstairs, but I’m not sure if he followed me up here. And there are two more over by the movie theatre, shooting us right this very second,” Harry smiles. “How picturesque we must look,” Louis winks. “Come on, Baby Clooney. Let’s show the world how you have your old friend on your side, hmm? Let’s go buy you a hundred new shirts.” “I have shirts.” “You should burn all of them,” Louis pulls him away towards Guess.

And this one:

Harry finally gets them out of their clutches, with a few rushed sorrys about having a meeting. He grabs Zayn’s hand and pulls him back through the gate towards the row of trailers, as Preston gives a wave to the security officers. They hear the girls excitedly celebrating and laughing, taking more pictures of their backs, at them holding hands. “Sorry?” Harry grimaces. “Don’t be sorry,” Zayn lifts their hands to kiss the back of Harry’s. That elicits more screams from near the gate, which sends Harry into hysterics. Zayn just blushes and pulls Harry along to walk faster, embarrassed.

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hey 💘😚 won't look down + 2, 6, 14

Julia, my light and everlasting.

2. What scene did you first put down?The very first one! The first word of the first sentence. I write fic completely in order, so. When you read, “Misery loves company, or so the saying goes,” that’s how I started. That’s how I wrapped my head around the story I knew I was going to dive into, for better or worse.

6. What makes this fic special or different from all your other fics?Lol it’s really sad. Like, I knew going into it that it would be sad. It has that feeling through out, doesn’t it? That everything sucks and the world is terrible. It has such a downer quality to it. So I think that was the big difference. It’s a story that at its core is really, really sad.

14. Is there anything you wanted readers to learn from reading this fic?Addiction blows! It’s really shitty, and makes you feel really shitty about yourself. But it doesn’t mean it lasts forever. (And even when it sort of does last forever, at least deep down, it doesn’t mean you’re damaged goods.)

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Graceee 💕💕💕 5, 6 and 11 with TLOS!

Hello, dove :)

5. What part was the hardest to write?I feel like it’s such shit to say, but This Life Of Sin actually came really easy to me! It was pretty seamless. I think the little detail I struggled with, sort of, was Harry and Zayn’s family stuff. I had to make Harry’s mom super detached, which was weird, and Zayn loved his family, but kept himself far away. I had to make sure I didn’t get too heavy handed with both sides.

6. What makes this fic special or different from all your other fics?I was just telling someone the other day, that I wanted this fic to be different from many of my others in one simple way: no angst lol. I wrote it soon after WLD and knew I wanted a story that had ups and downs, a bit of a twist, intensity, etc… But did NOT involve them fighting, breaking up, or having drama with each other. Their problems in the story were all external. Hurdles to jump together, as a team.

11. What do you like best about this fic?I’ve gone on record by saying that I personally hate/cannot write canon. It’s just not how I’m wired. If you want a canon story from me, it’s best not to even ask lol. I love AUs. I thrive when I write AUs. And this is about as Alternate Universe as you can get, placing these two boys into Texas. I love that I got to write them with Texas twangs, throwing middle fingers up to authority, fucking with the system. I had fun with it.

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push into the sky + 11

Hi! :)

11. What do you like best about this fic?PUSH is still one of my favorites, and I wish more people were into it! I think I have two favorite parts: the Zayn reveal (you know, The Big One) and Harry’s drunken thoughts comparing he and Zayn to glaciers, after the huge fight where he ruins everything.

Harry doesn’t really remember the cab ride itself, but he distinctly remembers talking to the driver about ice and glaciers, and how global warming is a real thing, because glaciers don’t want to fall apart or break off into the ocean, something must cause a shift, a murmur, a crack. Something big, something seismic, must cause something even bigger to break into pieces.

And I guess I also like the fact that it’s a story about two really flawed people, who from an outsider’s perspective, maybe seem like total assholes. But they find their way in the end!

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7 & 12 :)

I answer 12 already! So here you go!

7. How much do you likesymbolism in your fics?I like symbolism! Not quite “the green light on Daisy’s far off dock” type symbolism, though. I more so use it as a device to show intention or character flaws. Harry in Won’t Look Down quite literally forces Zayn to choke him. He places Zayn’s hand on his own throat and makes him squeeze. We then find out Harry hates himself a whole lot. His self loathing runs deep. So that little instance symbolized how he felt, I guess.

Or an easy one would be the fact that Harry and Zayn both wore their wedding rings around their necks for years in Bridges I Have Burned. The comparison to an old cup of tea in All Your Reasons. The house Harry practically built from the ground up in On Your Feet.

I like symbols!

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5 8 9 11 and 12 :)

I answered a few of these, so here are the other questions :)

5. What’s your favorite headcanon you use in fics?This is a good question. I think what I tend to do a lot, and maybe people notice and hate it, or notice and gracefully choose not to point it out to me: I tend to think of Harry as someone who needs constant validation. (Probably a lot like me in that way.) So I have numerous fics where I have him asking Zayn, “You don’t hate me, right? You’ll kiss me again, right? You’ll let me in the door next time, right?” He’s needy. That’s a headcanon I tend to latch to most often when it comes to Harry Styles. I can’t help it. I like him on his knees, man. It’s my jam.

8. How often do peoplecatch onto your little details?This is a GREAT question. I love when people point out little details that I put into my fics, or small tidbits that maybe don’t hit you over the head right away.

I think what I love most, is taking something about someone’s personality and presenting it in a not-obvious kind of way. Instead of making Slide Zayn as this hot-head punching walls and spitting about how mad he is all the time, or talking about the ways he can be harsh, I just had him curse a lot. Like A LOT. (Same with Push Into The Sky Harry and Zayn: they cursed like sailors also.) I used their natural language as a way to show how they interact with the world. Overly obvious dialogue/narration/story… drives me INSANE, so I try to use little things to point out their character traits. I want you to figure out who they are as people, not tell you.

Sometimes people catch onto the small details, and sometimes they don’t. If nothing else, I think people catch onto the way I like to present technically unlikable or trying-to-be-better characters. I like when people get what I’m about, I guess.

9. What’s the fic youlike the least?I can honestly say I like parts, or a sentence, or a conversation, in every fic I’ve ever written. (But on principle, since I hate writing canon, I guess I’ll say A Language I Don’t Speak.)

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