goodmorning sunday
man last night i couldnt sleep.
i think it was a combo of being horny and hungry haha i fell asleep at like 1am then woke up again at 3 and made some ramen.
kinda tried to get my lady in the mood but she wasnt having it....she never does really.
but nonetheless, i did use some of my time early this morning by writing another poem, im getting more and more comfortable by just letting it flow off my head which i like just to let what im feeling out vs well...doing it like this.
however i dont think this is a bad way. tumblr doesnt seem like a judgmental place to be honest not like facebook or instagram and even twitter...well twitter is just hella fast feed its in then its out.
but yea i woke up to my 4 year old jumping on the bed, washed my face, drank water, made coffee then took him with me to pick up some Pandulce.
so figured right now while jacky and the little one are relaxing in the room i can get some journaling done on here then clean up the house a bit because it is a messsssssss.
cant really go outside today because i dont know where my readers are at right now in the world but here in clovis cali, its gloomy from the fires up in the mountains with a spot of ash falling from the sky so in a way were back to being like that movie silent hill smh.
so yea its going to be, well i hope, a relaxing sunday before we start the work week.
im still enjoying my weekends off somewhat, just wish things were a bit different. i know i cant really change jacky or i dont even know if she will accept any common ground, ummm im honestly just playing it day by day, starting to save up again just in case that day comes to where i decide to move out because she doesnt want to try to make this work then thatll be that.
but ill focus on that when i get there.
anyways ill finish this off with i hope whoever reads this is remembering to focus on themselves because its important. im not saying put everything and everyone on the backburner 100&, like 90% though focusing on what you want and love to do and who you want to be in this moment of life because if you lose yourself, i would hate for you to wake up and blink one day and say "shit....ima be 60 years old tomorrow and im barely wanting to do things i want to do"
so i hope you have a great rest of your sunday and have a great start to week tomorrow.
much love,
gene.
