𝓓𝓮𝓪𝓻 𝓓𝓲𝓪𝓻𝔂 [grey]
[The page orientation is turned landscape style. It’s a quasi-pros/cons list of two side-by-side columns — the lines in the second column try to creep up the side before ultimately spilling into the next page.] :
𝓣𝓻𝓸𝓾𝓫𝓵𝓲𝓷𝓰
✱ LIAR. Tells the court he lost his whole memory but remembers the police department he grew up in. Trips up on his act when he’s tired at night?
✱ if he’s not lying about losing his memory: no one’s looking for him (is someone happy to be rid of him? why does nobody miss him) ↳ (did something happen to his family?)
✱ if he’s lying about losing his memory: scary good actor. lied in court. broke the law. dangerous. (what did he get away with?) - could get away with anything ↳ (what did he do that was so bad he needed to lose his identity to escape it?)
✱ tr̲i̲a̲l̲ & e̲r̲r̲o̲r̲!!! last 3 times a boy paid attention to you, ended badly. learn.
✱ Interested in you for no coherent reason (to review: pulled a knife on him, dragged him out to boring bumblefuck at 5 am, gave him nightmares, made him cringe @ formal) ; knows you’re a monster ; must have ulterior motives
✱ radiates dangerously precious aura that tempts you to try and hold his hand even when you have all of this in mind (scary pixie dream boy!!! scary pixie dream boy!!!)
𝓒𝓸𝓶𝓯𝓸𝓻𝓽𝓲𝓷𝓰
✱ Has had at least three opportunities to publicly or privately murder you. Has murdered you approximately zero times.
✱ He shows up to catch you at the end of your worst falls, but calls you the superhero.
✱ How his voice makes your ugly name sound pretty again
✱ not only understands and validates your wildly obscure camp movie references but also can ramble about them even longer than you can
✱ supports ‘outdated’ music taste
✱ lets you be TOUGH - turns out you can wrap your own wound but didnt realize it because every other man tries to baby you
✱ PATIENCE OF A SAINT!!!!!!!! (or someone with nowhere to go…) ↳ does this weird thing where it’s almost like he understands and empathizes
✱ How his voice makes lies like “you’re safe” sound believable (could be troubling if he wasn’t right 4/4 times). almost makes you believe you have a choice in things
✱ feels like you’re in a dream around him. (would be troubling in relativity to a life that usually feels like reality but a dream is a nice alternative to a nightmarish life) healthy(?) distraction (escape?) from horrific problems - nothing goes wrong around him ↳ but never boring
✱ FEARLESS!! (contagiously) ↳ makes life feel less wes craven more wes anderson
✱ Only acts edgy and dangerous in a sexy free spirited fire sign kind of way
✱ witty banter that does not turn into serious cutting character attacks SID ↳ not for lack of ammunition
✱ How pretty his name looks in your handwriting 𝑮𝒓𝒆𝒚 𝑪𝒂𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒍𝒚 𝓖𝓻𝓮𝔂 𝓒𝓪𝓿𝓮𝓻𝓵𝔂 𝓖𝓻𝓮𝔂 𝓒𝓪𝓿𝓮𝓻𝓵𝔂 nice
✱ is a motivation (makes you want to get your shit together!!!) ↳ dumb enough to believe in you — might believe in you enough for you to believe it & live up to it
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Send ‘𝓓𝓮𝓪𝓻 𝓓𝓲𝓪𝓻𝔂 ’ for something Max has written re: your muse in her journal!! { ✍️ // (ALWAYS ACCEPTING.) }









