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[dexterrhymeswithexpert]

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[antonymeanonyme]

they should make an allo4ace writer hotline for when i have great compelling smut ideas but am way too fucking ace to write it

[blasphematic]

I said I'd be here this morning but ive gotta do some cleaning and then shower and work so I'm just going to wait until tonight. I just woke up not too long ago but good news is I have no kids for the next few days so I'll be able to get on my laptop with leisure. I'm on discord / Tumblr mobile through the day however if anybody wants to chat.

[xenrye]

So when I was a kid, I was taught that God didn't want us celebrating our birthdays, because there was no reason to celebrate being born— you haven't done anything worth celebrating by simply being born. They backed this claim up by saying that the only birthdays shown in the Bible were the birthdays of evil men who did evil things, like behead people for fun on their birthday as a gift to themselves. We were supposed to ascertain, from this, that birthdays are evil. Why would God not have shown us "good" birthdays?— the birthdays themselves were evil.

When I was in school, and kids would bring snacks for their birthdays, I wasn't allowed to eat them. I wasn't allowed to go to my friend's birthdays, and in my small child mind— my parents were never very good at indoctrination, they mostly just told me things and I worked them out myself. I often decided they were wrong. I often made mistakes— In my small child mind, this translated to all parties being bad, which eventually became a fear of asking to spend time with my friends outside of class, because what if it was bad.

I was born in June. I'm turning 20 this month, in fact. I've celebrated my birthday once in person, and recieved a handful of gifts or well wishes over the past five years, in secret from my parents, who still say that celebrating birthdays is wrong. It's really hard to understand the logic now, though.

You celebrate birthdays because children did not always live so long to celebrate them. You celebrate the past year because it is a lot to get from one birthday to the next. I don't understand the harm in celebrating the act of living, of getting up and surviving and choosing to move forward. How is this something God could oppose?

I can't see what is supposedly harmful about birthdays, because two men in the Bible, hundreds of years ago, were rich and cruel. If anything, it seems like a warning against being rich and cruel, of which the Bible contains many stories.

I have to celebrate because it was not so long ago that making it to the next year, every year, felt like an impossible task, and I had to do it over, and over, and over again. I have to celebrate because my birthday happens to be the same month as Pride Month, and I am continually worried about my rights and my life in America. I have to celebrate because that is the only way I know I have made it this far.

Hey. Hey. I love you. I promise one day I'll throw you the best birthday party anyone could ever ask for. Because I'm glad you're alive. You exist, and that's something worth celebrating.

[suokumi]

so you know how they say not to use phone before bed because it fucks up your ability to pass out

i trained myself to be sleepy from phone use, I can't do shit on my phone, because, once I start doing anything at all on my phone, the eepy tired demons are on my ass regardless of how long I've been up and how energized I felt

[zurdurer]

Hate this apppp I'm tryna make a post and it's NOT SHORT

I've retyped it twice, hit post and both times it didn't work and couldn't be restored I'm gonna kick somethin

[zurdurer]

"Go my dysphoria beam" said the individual who wishes sorrow upon me

[gang-with-hatz]

AAAAARGH