Apr 13, 2025
Me rereading this part over and over and just repeating "what the fuck" to myself in different tones for 3 hours.
#literally what the fuck i am gnawing at the bars of my cage they make me insaaaneeee#matthew is already so resigned he is going to die there one way or another and james is already so desperate#all their edom scenes are so full of raw love and doom and desperation and resignation and trying to save the other in spite of themselves#at all costs#GRRRRAAAAAARGHHHHH#they make me crazy I wanna be half as good a writer as cassie is someday#wrecking me in ten lines#heronchild#james herondale#matthew fairchild#tlh#the last hours#chot#chain of thorns#tsc#the shadowhunter chronicles#canon#PTERODACTYL SCREECH