#happy 0627

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00627. 💛💛💛

there’s a lot of photos to use for this post but i settled for this one cause it’s close to what i’m feeling right now. just in this state of looking back and also thinking about where we and the boys are now. this day is one of my favorite bxg “holiday” aside from 9/5 and their birthdays, and at this point, the celebration is not just for the Untamed. because tbh, our support/love for them has gone way beyond that show. but of course, i’m forever thankful for the story that brought them together.

every year, i expect this day to feel smaller. to feel more disconnected. but i am proven wrong every time. it feels like coming home. it’s comforting.

this year i’ve been quieter. less active than i used to be. i’ve missed posting things i would have caught immediately back in my hyper-vigilant bjyx detective era. and there’s this tiny guilt that creeps in — like am i still allowed to feel this much if i haven’t been as present? am i still part of this if i’ve been living my life a little more offline? but then i think, i have evolved. genuinely. i love them differently now than i did at the start. not less, never less, just differently. quieter. more settled. the way you love something that has become part of you rather than something you’re still figuring out.

today, i think about the boys who were just starting their acting journey. looking out the field and hoping things will be fine. and it did. it went more than “fine” i would say. xz just attended the magnolia awards as a best actor nominee last night. wyb had his own nominations as well for his films last year. and even beyond those awards, just them doing things they love. their names hold a different weight now and so many things have happened ( the good and the bad ) — through all that, we have this fandom. and that’s something to celebrate 🎉. so wherever you are today, i hope you get the chance to do something fun. i hope that you continue on for years to come, even if it’s not the same & constant intensity. because that’s what this fandom taught me actually. how to hope without grasping. how to love something and hold it loosely. how to find joy in the small things: a similar accessory, a word choice, a timing that makes you go hmmm and smile to yourself at your phone like a fool. classic bxg. ✨ we’ve been doing this for years now. YEARS. and we’re still here. still soft about it. still showing up. 🙏🏻

happy 00627 turtles, the road ahead is long, let’s continue to accompany each other. 🥂

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endless summer 🍃// source

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this is how i always think of summer ☀️ / source

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