#healing in process

[icantstopthebleeeding]

i think love is when i put on a little makeup and do my hair even when i am sad, and i carry myself up the stairs even though my knees ache. i think love is the smallest decision to keep moving, even when every part of me begs to stop.

i think love is when i fix my bed and wash my face on the days i want to do nothing but sink into the mattress and disappear. it is the quiet ritual of telling myself i deserve clean sheets and cool water on my skin, even when i do not fully believe it.

i think love is when i buy myself boba tea when i am broke, and i trust that one day i will get myself back later. it is faith disguised as sweetness, a reminder that even in scarcity i can still offer myself something kind.

i think love is letting myself fall for someone, even though i am so afraid of what that could mean. love is a heavy thing, but it carries me as much as i carry it. it bends beneath the weight of fear and longing, yet somehow it still holds.

and maybe love is not only in the grand gestures or the once-in-a-lifetime vows. maybe it is in these quiet, ordinary choices. the way i keep reaching for myself in small ways, again and again. the way i whisper, without saying it out loud, that i am worth the effort.

[fanfandomreblg]

sometimes silence hurts more than words

[sofarfromreadycx]

Speaking to the universe.

I deserve happiness. Letting the love of your life go isn’t easy, but sometimes you just gotta set them free and let them move on. People that meant a lot to you will eventually become a distant memories in your life. I learned that I loved you a little too much, when you didn’t love me as much. I was always there for you together or not, but when I needed you the most… I was left standing alone. And for the moment I realized I was perfectly fine being alone cause you were never there. I know you’re trying to move on either on bad steps or right, and I hope you find yourself what you been looking for. I tried to advice you as a friend and it got me nowhere. Shit you said you’ll never do, shit i quit for you, now look at yourself. You’re changed. And I can give a less fuck about your opinion. I’m not going to lie, I hoped we got back. It’s too late now. I let you go, I gave up on you already. Keep moving on. I hope you’re happy. Soon I’ll be over you.