i can’t take out my black book
i can’t write it on facebook
3 months have gone by and i’m still hurting
im so uncomfortable that my stomach doesn’t allow me to feed myself
5 years? i dont even think i can wait 1 year
i’m only 21
i’m only 21
i’m only 21
will be 22
just turned 28
will be 22
will be 23
will be 24
will be 25
will be 26
I wake up early
i’m on time for work
i filled the sections with pamphlets
i start by sitting at the desk
i greet visitors
i go on my break
two workers are talking
people are staying until 9pm? i’ll stay too
enter a gallery and this woman named Alice and her husband Henry are amazed at the exhibit
she asks who to speak to about presenting their art at the museum
i give her an email
i take a 20 minute break
i memorize lines
head director person comes
we close the galleries
eye contact is being made
this guy starts talking
people are just coming in
everyone looks nervous
i tell them we’ll play a game
game 1: how many drunk people can we mess around with
game 2: how many numbers can we get
vicky: 3
peter: 1
tiz: 0
songs are okay
people are drinking
one man says, “are we not allowed to touch you? you’re sectioned off?”
i laugh, i feel like a rat
i see peter jumping from across the room telling me to come here
he hands me a cup of wine
we drink it secretly
MVP CATERER BRINGIN’ THE VEAS DRINKS
nothing can go wrong
vicky: 4
peter: 3
tiz- 1
“yo people be starin’”
nothing can go wrong
aretha franklin comes on
nothing can go wrong
eneida starts killin’ it
nothing can go wrong
i start dancin’
nothing can go wrong
signed, sealed, delivered comes on
nothing can DEF. go wrong
she knows the words
nothing can go wrong
i see deblasio talkin’ and singin’
i spot a few
the one i was interested in was with a woman
can’t go after that
let it go
8:11pm, less than an hour
man comes up asking about the art work
man was with woman
nothing can go wrong
man says woman is friend
nothing can go wrong
man says he attends hunter
nothing can go wrong
man is for Queens
nothing can go wrong
man is tall
nothing can go wrong
man be lookin’ like james franco
nothing can go wrong
tiz cock blocks
nothing can go wrong
exchanged numbers
nothing can go wrong
boss tells me to leave
nothing can go wrong
will see man on saturday
nothing can go wrong
did i just get a number?
vicky-5
vicky(2)- 1
i smoked
nothing can go wrong
i drove
nothing can go wrong
i turn the wheel
nothing can go wrong
i enter my house
nothing can go wrong
i go on facebook
nothing can go wrong
you’re tagged in a photo with your ex in another state. your mother “loves” the photo. your sister “likes” it, so does your best friends.
what does that say?
what does. that say.
a day that has been nothing but good has been ruined by my abandoned priorities and by a stupid post.
i let it ruin my day, i gave permission to it. i hear the rain starting to fall
and it’s late
or early
i’m tired and sad
i...this is a really long post
my chest and arms feel numb
and i feel so silly because he doesn’t feel this way
i have a date on saturday
he’s traveled with his ex
i can’t, he can’t stop either one of us from doing anything