I have recently tried to rein in my 'depressing' outbursts i have as i know that no one is really that interested and most are fed up with them. Monday is not so far away now and i dred review appointments for harley, my brain does not focus to well, my mood swings are ridiculous and i feel helpless, useless. I can not help but feel the worst will be said 'she needs her 3rd open heart surgery this year' she is more aware now, she understands and will want answers..... i dont think i am prepared to be able to answer them. I am utterly terrified for monday but i hope for the best out come, she has come this far and is amazing, the reason i fight on. Keep your fingers and toes crossed for monday. #heartreview #cardiacreview #chd #babygirl #chdfighter