continued — @heart-ruled .
🔧 - He stood, frozen as she looked up at him. He had no idea what he’d walked into, why she looked so utterly broken at the moment. It’s a major shock to him, seeing someone he idolized so vulnerable at the moment. She’d obviously been crying, that was bad enough…but what was she doing on the floor? Did something happen to her? It’s not good, though, with all the shit she keeps lying around in her lab…
Eventually, he snapped himself out of his immobile state, shaking his head as he at least mustered up the courage to say something.
“H…huh? Are you…o-” He stopped himself, realizing he was about to ask a stupid question. No, obviously she’s not okay. And trying to think of why just left him more confused than ever as he knelt next to her, moving any stray machinery parts on the floor out of the way with his foot. “You’re not hurt, are you Iruma-san?”
He offered off his arm to her. Unsteady and uncertain, but still there if she needed it.
“C-come on….you can’t stay down there…”
she thought she was used to this cycle by now . had gotten used to forcing herself to stay awake until it was a choice of whether to finally suffer through the potential horrors of sleep or eventually passing out . more && more often found herself pushing herself farther && farther — trying to push how long she could stay up before she had to sleep . but of course , that meant the latter was becoming more common . && she isn’t stupid as people make her out to be — she knows that it’s dangerous . especially this time , knew there was still the possibility that she could have ended up genuinely hurt . could have died . or perhaps even worse , hit her head && gone into another coma . ( wasn’t sure which was better at this point — only knew that she didn’t want EITHER . )
kazuichi’s concern only confirmed her own fears — that this was bad . that it was only getting worse . still , that question would earn a small shake of her head . because she’s not hurt , right ? not really . the fall had knocked the breath out of her , but she’s fine now . heart was still pounding , but she’s generally fine . but hot tears still welled in blue eyes . clung to her lower lashes && threatened to fall to her cheeks as she reached out to take his arm . used it pull herself up into a sitting position , though she’d rely on him far more than she knew she should . offered another weak shake of her head as she leaned into him . let her head fall to his shoulder as her grip on his arm loosened . a search for comfort she knew she didn’t deserve , but so needed .
she’d force herself to try to breathe — a deep breath that would turn into a hiccuping sob as she did . shook her head again — forehead to the bright green of kazuichi’s jumpsuit . “ i can’t — i don’t wanna do this any more . ” doesn’t want to be so afraid of something biologically necessary . didn’t want to force herself to stay up solely because of the fear of what would happen . didn’t want to have to worry him with her well - being anymore . wished she could just make the fear go away . wished she could be NORMAL for once .
