lonely on christmas
merry christmas, haileykins. i still think of and miss you every single day. i hope you have a great day today.
i had a dream of you a couple nights ago. you told me the reason why you didnt love me anymore, because you thought i was dangerously manipulative, both mentally and sexually, and i woke up crying, thinking you, in reality, might have actually believed that i was like that. i don’t know if you really do, since you never told me the real reasons why you fell out of love with me, but i never meant to manipulate or hurt you in any way, especially intentionally. if i ever did, i didn’t know, and i never meant to hurt you in that way. i always tried to put my best intentions into making you happy, even though i had times where i got disinterested and lost sight of making you happy and giving you all of the attention that you deserved.
i miss you a lot. and sometimes i still cry over you.
i wish i could talk with you again.
im thinking of you a lot today heejy.
