#helpmefindmyself

[shaelove66-blog]

Trying to find myself.

I’m in this place where I don’t really know what I like. I don’t know what I am capable of. I’m not ambitious. I don’t really have many creative ideas. Although I like to imagine that one day I will start a Youtube channel. That I will have so many followers and become an idol and that people will like me. I’m not sure how to do this... because currently I don’t even like myself, so how are other people suppose to? How are they going to look up to me if I’m always self doubting or discouraging myself? Maybe here I will start to pave the way. I’m not even sure if it will work... but I guess I’ll give it a go...

So here is my beginning.

[smoking-diemonds]

I wish you wanted my protection the way I believe it needs you.

I wish you were lost so you could find your way to me.

I wish you were aware that I could help fix you.

I wish you needed me the way I need you.

I wish you loved me the way I love you.

But that's the thing about wishes... They never come true. They are pointless. They are a shout into oblivion.