#her romance

[shesthemoon]

She missed his hands sliding down her back as he slowly reached for a kiss. His touch had a way to make her wet, so wet she couldn’t resist touching him back as she climbed on top of him.

When they made love it seemed like the world stopped and focused on them. He made her feel like she was on top of the world as she rode him and he grabbed her tits. She leaned forward as he place her tits in his mouth. That made her wetter.

She missed having his dick so deep in her, her pussy gripped it like it was the first time every time. She missed the way he’d come back up and let her taste all her juices off his lips.

After he’d eat it hed slide right back in her tight wet pussy. It was always nice and warm so warm he’d say how much he like being in there. It’s been over a week and all she could crave was him being deep inside of her, fcking her as she played with her clit. The thought of him sucking on his thumb and then rubbing her pearl made her pussy throb.

As the night comes to an end she keeps fantasizing about him. Wishing she could be in his arms again, wishing he could make love to her one more time, wishing he’d cum deep inside of her and filling her up with all of his juices.

[shesthemoon]

November 20th, 2020

[shesthemoon]

I wish i could be held by you forever the thought of potential growth in me has me in my feelings more than ever. But i know this is no place for us to be, while I’m still fixing me.

I pray nightly that I’m healed before you leave me for good. That you see the good in me out weights the bad and that old shit ain’t me.

I pray that when you’re touching on my body you realize you don’t want to be anywhere else. That the love you give me out weights your wealth.

I wish i could start all over with you and give you the me you deserve a sweet, sweet girl before the real world.

But our journey is strange and i don’t know where it’ll go. I just hope you keep fcking me nice and slow.

While i asked you lastnight “what are we doing?” You giggled. I’m just curious because i don’t want this shit to end either.

[shesthemoon]

Overthinking...

Did i do this to keep you? No. If i wanted to i wouldve kept it.

I did it to protect me! I did it because i knew you’d just hate me more! I did it because seems like no matter what i will never be good enough to carry your seed. I did it because i don’t want nobody to be the father of my child that believes i ruined their life.

Did i want to keep it ? Yes i did.

I planed moving far far away with my baby not telling you about it and just disappearing but it would’ve been impossible to do so quickly. I wasn’t ready to run out my job, home and the state I’m staying in just to hide a baby from you.

But i was so close to... so close to saying fck your feelings and taking the chances with my child. Instead i failed myself by listening to you, by feeling like the lowest pieces of shit in the world and doing what i told myself i would never do again.

Overthinking...

This shit is hard. I know i messed up but i didn’t deserve to go through it again. I giggled about it, been calm, calmer than the first time and that’s what scares me.

I’m scared to love you completely again because i know that at any minute you can walk out of my life. I know that any bad habit that I’m still working out pops up you will curse me or simply disown me.

I’m trying to be the best me i can for you but what’s the point if i will never be the best for you?

Maybe you deserve someone better, someone who will love you and someone who hasn’t Committed all the errors i have in our relationship. That’s the only way you’ll be fully happy.

I get angry and frustrated because i know we will never be the same and all this is probably temporary but I’ll enjoy every minute with you till you decide it’s time.

But after that i will not be back i will turn the pages of this chapter in my life and write a new one, one with many corrections and more than a draft.

Overthinking...

Of the nights i cried myself to sleep without you, of the nights i wish i didn’t use as remorse.

Overthinking about you. And only you. And i hate it.

[shesthemoon]

Last night i got lucky ...

I got to view the moon, my city and you all at once.

[shesthemoon]

us.

what are we doing? I'm in love with the fact that we can’t go that long without each other but mostly the energy in the room when we are together. wether we are angry, happy, lonely seems like our body syncs into one soul. last night while we made sweet love all I could think about was how I could never be with anyone else. nobody gets me as wet as you do 4 years and plus in counting and here I am with our issues and all you are the only one I want to fuck, touch, suck and love on. My pussy is perfectly set for your dick the way it grips on it, the way it seems to instant want to cum when you are in it. I know it’s not all about sex, it shouldn’t be. but I can lay in your arms and be happy, that’s the best orgasm there is, when I wake up in the middle of the night and wrap my arms around your warm body for security. when you ask about us just being sexual I giggled only because I know our love is bit stronger than we think and it won't be easy to play that role. but I am all for it although it might not be, it kind of feels like a fresh start (the thought of it of course). I love you, I love you so much that I don’t care how you want to be in my life right at this very moment as long as I have you by my side. I wish we’d be past this stage never thought we’d be here but I hold myself accountable for us being here, don’t ever want us to be here again.

us. 

[shesthemoon]

We’ll never hold each other again and that’s ok, that’s just fine because every night i wrap myself in your words and in the thought of us being together in the future and slowly as the nights go by and i wake up looking for you I’m realizing that you’ll never be next to me again. That another woman will love you better than i ever could and that you’ll be happy to be without me. As the day goes on I’m sad but I’m accepting it all because i did this to me. One day I’ll be loved again and hopefully that day I’ll be able to love too... but I’m certain I’ll never love again and I’ll never try to.

[shesthemoon]

Love is strange.

Love is deep and beautiful.

Love is you & I.