Yh this is the first time that someone's takes in the utmv fandom on tumblr has annoyed me so fucking much that I've had to resist the urge to write a whole paragraph on why they're annoying, why dadmare and nsfw of a fictional adult character isn't the end of the fucking world, and that they're wrong.
Going back to Twitter and getting news from Gaza through there has completely opened my eyes to the full horror of what's happening. By that, I mean that it's not as censored as sites like TikTok are, and I can see the full extent of what the IDF has done to these people.
No single word can describe how I feel. Not a single one.
Flour bags are covered in the blood of innocent Palestinians. I saw a video of a child gathering flour from the floor. I saw pictures and videos of the trucks that carried those who died from the Flour Massacre. I saw a hijabi woman crying hysterically at that truck, seemingly looking for someone. I saw so many Palestinians mourn and cry at the dead bodies of their loved ones. I saw a mother cradling her dead child in her arms. I saw the aftermath of what happened to the Palestinian that the IDF ran over with a tank. I saw burned corpses. I saw how malnourished and hungry the Palestinians are because of the forced famine. I saw many things.
Tiktok gave me glimpses and words, Twitter gave me a window.
I am furious, heartbroken, sick to my stomach, and so so much more that I can't find proper words to. The world will never forget what Isreal has done. I will never forget that my country, Australia, helped fund this genocide. Your silence is noticed, your compliance is noticed, your inaction is noticed.
There's so much I want to say, to be honest. But there's also nothing I can say. To those who are in support of Palestine and have been playing their part, keep going, keep fighting, keep doing what you've been doing, don't let the world forget. To the Palestinians, I am sorry, though I know sorry isn't enough for what Isreal has put you through. We see you, we hear you, we know what's happening and we won't stop until you are free.
If you've read this far and would like resources or want to know how to help, I have a post here that I made during the global strike that has links to resources. I think that's all I have to say, I've pretty much just tapped on my keyboard until I had no thoughts left.
Select "keep reading" to read the full post, it's long.
The Blog
This blog will soon get a rework and I would like to make it clear that this AU is not intended for younger audiences. While mature content will not be posted for now, it will be in the future. I intend this AU to be for mature audiences at their own discretion.
I will make this clear in the bio when I rework the blog.
The Comic
A while ago I made a post declaring that the comic's writing is underway. I have completed the prologue and have been slowly working on the pages. I have 5 pages with completed line art and one in progress.
Originally, I wanted to shade the comic in halftones, but that quickly became a source of frustration when I tested the previews on my phone and a private test of the second page on Tumblr. The presence of moire was clearly going to bother me, and I'd rather not hurt the eyes of my readers, so I will line art the comic first before I colour it.
The comic will be in greyscale, with colourful cover art.
As a treat, here is a wip screenshot of the 6th page.
Progress on the comic will vary and will be slow as I am in university. But when the prologue is done I will release the pages and will share progress for the writing and the future batch releases of the FATE Route, which is the true storyline of Eschatale.
From Soultale to Eschatale: A reflection of the past 8 years
Over two years ago, I drew concepts for a rework and overhaul of an AU I created in 2017. The designs and ESPECIALLY the story went through quite a few changes and reworks since, and, honestly, I am quite happy now with the concepts I have and the audience I want to attract for this AU.
Eschatale used to be Soultale (not to be confused with the au created by uru1), which was an AU that served as a way to express how I was feeling and a way for me to experiment with my art and creativity. Undertale became my special interest and I had no intention of letting it go.
The first iteration of this AU that I can find online is on Wattpad, where it was centered around my self-insert and touched on dark topics in ways that only an uneducated and immature ten year old could. And then I got ahold of deviantart, and it was history (I won't reveal how to find my old stuff because god forbid anyone sees how I was in 2017 as a ten year old with free reign of the internet).
A self-insert turned into an Undertale OC, more characters based off of past friends were created, and Soultale grew up with me. I made physical comics of the AU for a childhood friend until 2019 and there were times when I turned to the AU for comfort and expression when I was at my lowest (which was most of the time back then).
Soultale became a culmination of my trauma, feelings, thoughts, and my imagination. And, in 2020, there eventually came a time where I decided that it was time to let it go. It served its purpose and I was finally in a safe environment.
Before Eschatale, in 2022, I made concepts for Kismettale. Obviously, I didn't like it. The AU felt bland and didn't seem like it could stand out. Plus, all the characters I have grown immensely attached to weren't present.
2023 rolled around and so did my Undertale special interest. I was giving non-university courses a try in the creative industry, I was content with the fact I left high school after completing year 10, and I had a renewed creative drive. I began committng to the AU in August of 2023 and ...
... Yeah. I scrapped Callisto and redesigned Alphys and Eve.
I even tried my hand at pixel sprites...!
How terrifying!
... Peak design!!
It took me a while to figure out what I wanted to add to this AU. I didn't want the locations to take place in a standard USA environment, because I am not a US citizen. Australia seemed to be significantly lacking its representation in the Undertale AU department, so I decided that I wanted to impliment my country into the story and some of the designs. After all, I live here and it's the most familiar environment and culture to me.
Now, two years after Eschatale's conception, I have a good hold on what I want to do with this AU. It even has its own multiverse continuation or "sequel" because why the fuck not.
I'm excited to one day show everyone how much this AU means to me, and I hope that you all come to love my characters as much as I do.
I need time rn to sift through the reblogs I need to make so that Palestinians can receive money for aide. Asks will not be open for a while bc I'm gonne be real here it's taking a toll on me given recent events in Lebanon and Gaza.
I haven't been able to advocate as much as I used to due to my own circumstances and life. I will definitely keep reblogging Palestine related things obv, just can't mentally handle the amount of asks that pour in when I do.
Stay safe, free Palestine and leave Lebanon alone 🫶🫶
Gonna take a break from posting until after my birthday (which is on the 21st). Been feeling demotivated lately and using my tablet has felt like a chore. Rn I need to focus on getting prepped mentally for seeing my family and processing that I'll be an adult. Will still draw, ofc, but I will be writing more. Also, happy late 9th birthday Undertale, don't have art for you this year bc I plan on doing smth big for your big 10 <3
