#hi-taylor

[pushingtwenty]

@taylorswift TAYLOR!!! i lost your follow back in 2014, hope you can refollow me someday :( love you!!

[pushingtwenty]

seeing taylor live for the first time after 9 years of being her fan - amazon prime day concert.

Well, as some of you may know, I’m from Brazil. I never got the chance to see Taylor before because she only came here once to promote Red, and it was a very, very private concert, so i couldn’t get in. Either way, the fact that I’ve never seen her before changed on July, 10th.

I planned my whole family vacation to NYC based on Taylor’s concert on Prime Day. So I basically got into a 10 hour flight having no idea if I would even get close to her, but I trying doesn’t hurt anyone; and I still was on vacay, and in NYC (which is my favorite city on the world), so it’s not like I would be 100% sad if I didn’t get the chance to see her, even tho I planned the trip thinking about it.

Anyways, after trying really hard to win tickets via emails, contests and stuff, I didn’t get any. I was very hopeless at getting into the show but I thought that at least I should go and be outside Manhattan Center and try to see her somehow (?) which now I understand it was like, impossible, since she didn’t enter the venue by the front door (ofc) and the other possible way was nearly impossible to get close to her.

So I got at Manhattan Center at 9 a.m and stood there till some Swifties came around - thank you for that -. I met some AMAZING people there and they were very compassionate of what I was trying to do, so much that a boy (named Harry, you are angel btw) found me tickets. (THANK YOU TO THE GIRL AKA HARRY’S FRIEND WHO GOT ME THEM ILY SO MUCH.) I arrived at the venue by 9 am and didn’t get tickets till 5 pm and I was so hopeless that I just couldn’t believe I really was going to SEE TAYLOR SWIFT FOR THE FIRST TIME AFTER 9 YEARS and I was the first one in line so FRONT ROW!!!

It meant so much to me. I left São Paulo incredibly sad and having the worst time struggling with depression and s**cidal thoughts. I literally went to NYC thinking that all I wanted to do was to see my favorite city one last time and only hope to God that I could see Taylor once before I did something to myself. And I ended up getting so much strength; seeing her made me believe I can push myself harder. I don’t want to leave this world by choice without seeing her again. It’s honestly a heavy talk here, but it’s true. Seeing her gave me hope, gave me motivation to keep fighting.

I will always be thankful for such a huge opportunity. As a international fan, I always thought I would never get the chance to see Taylor, unless I actually got into a flight and just see what happens. And this happened. It changed everything to me - and I promise you, it’s one of the best feelings ever; listening to her sing the songs you love the most. Seeing her in front of you...she looks like a doll. I couldn’t and still can’t believe it was real. Touching her hand made me cry so hard.

Don’t ever lose hope. 10 hour long flight, no tickets till almost the show started, absolutely no hope. I never thought this would happen to me and it literally changed EVERYTHING in my life from now on.

@taylorswift I love you. I honestly love you so much, from the bottom of my heart. You give me hope. You give me everything I need to keep going. I’ll always be thankful for you.

@taylorswift @taylornation