I had a really nice and comfy day today. In the beginning I thought of not posting anything this month. I had a monthly-streak a long time and I still have old things I could upload and also wanted to upload some time but there was nothing where I had the urge to...where I felt it. But in the end, I had the idea when sitting in front of my screen writing on a story. One of the protagonists will go to Canada and I had to decide to which city. A large one, a small one...and why at all?
What will be forever connected to Canada - and maybe partially a reason why I choose it (besides that it is America, the great continent) is an artist I admire and who is already part of at least one post on this blog: Charlotte Loseth, also known as Sea Oleena. She once said in an interview that she "was raised under the infinite skies of Saskatchewan, Canada." I think this fits to her music so much...and the sentence carries a lot of the time it was written or said within it. The time of a new beginning, of the journey into music and also I myself was younger then. It was a different time.
I re-discovered her yesterday when the step-father of a friend passed away. He loved music, was basking and a hippie heart, he travelled the world and I only witnessed him once but he was such a kind person by heart. When I heard Holobody's Riverbed it was such a fit - the music, the soft voices and the lyrics - and I sent it to my friend. In particular, I love the part of "I take my time - You take your time" as it takes time to let go of a body, to adjust to a past and a different present.
So it is now on loop - even when writing this text - and I thought about writing a little poem. A main part of it is a question - I sometimes struggle so hard to write scenes. How does it look, smell, feel? Fantasy has to kick in but sometimes I feel my fantasy is so limited. And even more, I want to write kind of realistic. I don't want to invent things which wouldn't fit reality. In the end, fiction is somehow always fantasy but when it's not completely e.g. a SciFi-setting or a High-Fantasy-World I want it to be real. Everything else would be a betrayal to what I want to achieve, want to write, how I want to write.
It's a hard path and sometimes I feel I would need to see so much more of the world which would make writing kind of a full-time job with too much travel expenses. In the end, somehow it works out (not always perfect, sadly) but some stories I have in mind I might never be able to write at all therefore. Luckily, the person will only travel there with no scene playing in Canada.
Saskatchewan...what a dreamy name. I think I will dream of the northern lights above the wide landscape there now. Listening to Holobody.
