#hopelesssofrantic

[mr600]

[bikini-bombshells]

[mr-137]

[eriktranbergofficial]

forgotten film Erik Tranberg

[thegodofhellfire]

[ress-san]

I like you, but maybe i didn't...

I've never realize that feelings could be unreliable. One moment you where certain as the sun, then another as muddled as the dusk of night. I was betrayed by affirms that it was rewarding-- deceited by novelty that it was worthwhile. Maybe they are... But before every grand mirror there is a fractured version; a reflection that toyed the other; elicit and confined them on a plight of questions.

When i admit i like him, some part of me also whisper "no you didn't". It vexed and concoct like a shed tear on a cold drink. It nulled the vision and even throw oneself onto a bed of isolation. The strength to move and act upon, to bargain oneself in turn for a conclusion-- was mounted by flight of apprehension, or maybe by a phantom of it not being genuine on its claimed post. Yet the delay of confession was also tormenting, even more perhaps the weight of rejection. Against time, it is a burden to carry, a likelihood of regret... so long as one is imprison by the thought of accountability, and the fear of being mislead.

[grdn0fwildflowers]

“In a hundred years they'll cut down a tree with our initials carved into a growth ring near the center and they'll wonder why its wood burns so warm”

- unknown

~ With Love, G.

[ziigee]

As if fictional angst wasn't enough, we have real life will-they-won't-they situation going on for the last decade!

What are we doing here? How long are they gonna drag this out?

The hours that i have spent on them going through their cons, gifs, videos, gag reels, interviews, photo ops, if i had used those hours for self development, i would have been a well rounded individual. But no... I need to fill the void with all this crazy, filthy chaos and angst. No sleep, no food, just them and their stupid smiles and idiotic heart eyes, and me giggling like a maniac in the dark at 4am.

Am I doing this for the next decade? Yes, if I live that long.

Will that ruin my life? Yes, obviously.

Am i ready for this? Hell no!

So what's the catch? People ask me, why you doing this to yourself? It's not worth it.

Welllllll....

it is actually.

Take all the pain, chaos, anxiety, suspense and mystery out of it,

What's left is purely beautiful. Even if it turns out to be platonic, what they have is truly amazing and wonderful. I never had that closeness with anybody in my life and seeing that on the screen between 2 grown ass men makes me happy, gives me hope that it's never too late to find your soulmate or this level of connection.

Idk where to find it but heck i am not giving up.

Don't mind me i am blabbering. With just 2 hours of sleep, i see them, they are EVERYWHERE!

They reside in my mind, heart and soul permanently and it will take more than a tight grip to raise me from my perdition.

I am going to sob for a while now.