#hsk!n

[shyguykin]

i had a dream!! i had a dream and it didn’t make a whole lot of sense and it’s fading fast from my memory but i was talking to dave. i was talking to dave and he said:

“im tired of screaming to be wanted everyone screams to be wanted fangirls towards bands babies towards their mothers and they get somewhere with it but when i try i feel like im muted out my voice is sore and my eyes are redder then they could ever need to be im tired of screaming endlessly into the void john i just want to be heard”

i- i really can’t remember the rest of it because i woke up shortly after that but this right here is so so prominent in my mind right now!! it keeps repeating and repeating in my head so it must be important. dave was so sad and i think he had been crying… dave where ever you are it’s okay. you don’t have to scream anymore.

[shyguykin]

@other fictionk!n (and other hsk!n especially) how do you tell the difference between your headcanons for a certain character and how you remember a certain character actually being? i struggle remembering things and i’m having a lot of trouble drawing the line between the two.

[shyguykin]

i haven’t posted this yet, but while i was over at my dave’s house this weekend we tried really hard to meditate so that was i could try and remember some of my timeline!

it was a guided meditation from youtube and we were interrupted before we could finish, but when the instructor described a clear starry sky to picture high above me i could only see thick white clouds. and later i kind of zoned out and couldn’t focus on what they were saying, i could only see water bubbles, you know when you’re underwater and you see something else dive under the surface with you, those kind of bubbles. except they were floating towards me rather then the top of the water.

and then we were interrupted.

i’m not really sure what it all means, but it seems important so i’m going to log it here. maybe it will be more important later.

[shyguykin]

alright! now that i’m all set up i’m saying hi for real this time!!

this is my new hsk!n john sideblog and i’d really appreciate finding some people to follow.

so if you post:

•homestu//ck •hsk!n stuff •fictionk!n stuff •spooky stuff •clouds •salamanders •or even occasional anime stuff!!

please reblog or even like this and i'll check you out and maybe follow you with my main and you can see reblog notifications and stuff from this blog. :D

i’d love to try and make some new friends while i’m at it too, i mean, i’m really new to all this fictionk!n stuff so i’d love some pointers and junk!

[shyguykin]

so this started a while back but lately i’ve been getting a lot of stomachaches whenever i think about john. it started a while back when i was trying really hard to remember my timeline and if i ever hit god tier or not because my dave and i will sometimes joke about me still having wind powers and stuff when it’s really windy and the wind will stop for a little bit. but it gives me a really bad pain in my stomach, and when i talked to him about it he said it might be linked to something embarrassing or bad. i’m getting a little stressed out about it though and i would look to my dreams but i never remember them so it wouldn’t help. did i get stabbed? did something bad happen to me?? i do have a birthmark on my stomach and those are like supposedly an indicator of past death or whatever but that’s not where it hurts. i dunno anymore. i’m gonna go get some sleep.

[shyguykin]

hello!!

i'm still really new to all this but this is my new john egbert fictionk!n side blog. i'm not entirely what all to put here so i'm just gonna say hello right now and maybe follow a few other people, but this is a sideblog so you'd get a notification with my main i guess. here's hoping i can figure everything out!