she told m' somethin' special. she told m' ta continue livin' fer her when her time finally came.
bu'-... i was stubborn. stupid. selfish... i wanted t'share m'monsta heritage, wanted ta keep her goin' wit'me, no matta how i could wit' Undynes help. i knew there was a way-
...bu' she refused.
she refused all m'help, all m'thoughts on how ta continue her life. i told her we were gettin' close ta bustin' her outta th'hell she was in...
bu' she said she'd jus' b'livin' in hidin'... how would tha' b'betta than her life she had then? least she had some type o'free will. some type o'freedom... i didn' agree, bu' no matta how much i begged, pleaded, was s'desperate fer her ta continue livin' wit' me, fer us...
she refused each time.
n her reasonin' was so, so simple...
"You're going to be okay-"
she spoke like she knew th'future-
my future, wit' her green eyes shinin' so brightly, so softly n full o'tha' love she got me hooked on...
"You're needed elsewhere, Russ." Star stroked m'cheek, wipin' m'tears away. "When I'm gone, you're going to continue on. You're going to see so many new and interesting things! Things we've only read about now-"
"how do ya know?!" i snapped, regrettin' how i barked at m'Sweet n gentle Star... s'full o'rage n'anger, frustration...
"Because-" Star giggled- giggled her sweet giggle as a means ta blockin' m'verbal attack- "You're just like that, Russ."
confused; annoyed, i wanted ta yell again at her, thinkin' she wasn' takin' m'seriously...
"You travel; You have that freedom now, and maybe one day-... It'll be strained, yes. But you still travel and you're not scared to continue on. With your Soul, that curiosity, that bravery-"
"m'a coward..." i wasn't proud o'cuttin' her off; i knew she hated tha' th'most when talkin'... bu' how could she call m' brave when she was th'bravest b'tween us combined?...
hell, i was hidin' away from camera's b'cause i didn' wanna deal wit' Muff's bullshit o'stealin' her parlors pride n' joy...
"Oh, sure!" She spoke, voice still sugary sweet n' nah sarcastic. "Everyone has cowardly inside them; But, truthfully; You're tactical. Always have been, you just don't see it!"
Star would always say tha'.... jus' ta make m'shuddup n pout, cause no- i didn' b'lieve her... bu', i got tired o'arguin' wit'her.
"But honestly, Russ. Let's be honest here..." She signed, movin' her hair away from her face wit' a slight sight o'a sad face.
"You're going to live way longer than I will. That's a fact you'll have to live with!" she playfully pointed her fingah at m', knowin' i would fight tha'...
bu', i kept m'fangs shut.
"You're handsome, sweet, and gentle... And you're helpful. In this world, you'll hear your new calling... Though it might not be with me; It'll be out there! Just... Don't ignore it, okay?" Star smiled, almost like she knew.
"If you feel that tug on your chest-" she playfully made a tug on m'jacket, right 'bove m'achin' soul. "-You have to follow it!"
She beamed tha' gorgeous smile at m' again...
"And! You gotta do it." Star added cheekily, givin' m' a look tha' had m' reply-
"why's i gotta do it fer?" i pouted, tryin' hard t'scowl when i wanted t'smile wit' her.
"Because..." She paused, her own eyes mistin' jus' enough b'fer she dashed it b'hind tha' smile again...
"Do it for me!"
tha's all it took fer me...
tha's all it took fer m'ta agree.
n i agreed even afta her death. afta we broke free.
