What does weight loss feel like? Sometimes it's lonely and it's tough. It's sleepless nights, empty roads, messy hair, tight long schedules, and different meals than your table. I'm not going to lie, it's tough. And guess what I'm human and imperfect. I don't always want to have the low calorie/ low carb option. I want to stay in bed all day sometimes but I know that for me laziness leads to snacking. I must face the reality of the past weeks. I haven't been eating well and in turn, haven't felt well. I'm tired more often and I have been getting headaches for weeks. I stopped running because I get fatigued, feel pain easier or out of breath (it could be mentally negativity). If you follow me on IG then you know I work out tons. My usual 4-5 times a week has dwindled to 2-3. I haven't put as much effort as I know I should. My diet has been shit and I hardly journal my progress. The scale doesn't lie and I have hit 201lbs. But seeing that number on the scale is a fucking eye opener. I REFUSE to go back to where I was. I have 2 kids and a husband who need me to stay healthy so I can care for them properly. I have one more social engagement next month then I am breaking any social ties until Christmas. I am going to finish the year as I began....strong and determined. I vow to take more walks, skip hot chocolate runs, and dodge candy peddling moms. I give myself this week to shock my body in reverse then all I plan on seeing is results. I hope to lose 6-8lbs by the new year and plan for a 2 lb/week weight loss after that. As always, fingers crossed and heart open to positivity.