#i'm getting fatter

[sharkgirlclaspurrs]

I feel bad about how my body changes

[33lbs-be-gone-blog]

I’m gaining weight (73kg)

the hardest part for me is dealing with my appetite. I can still pushing myself to do the workout even if it’s turn to be a “bad workout” at the end but the feel of craving something is really crazy I can’t handle it.

or maybe I should just change my meal?

I knew if I keep going on like this I’ll just gaining more :(

oh I remember I need to shared something related with hijab.

so last night I watched a social experiment vid where this girl wearing a white t-shirt with a black cardigan as the outer part, black jeans and snickers, walking down the street around Manhattan area for a while, receiving lots of guys teasing on her, and ever there’s a guy who keep walking beside her, keep talking and tease her for few minutes until her team comes up and “saved her”. Idk how you feel about it but it scares me a lot. You could tell how uncomfortable she is and things got frightened her up when that guy keeps walking beside her. It’s scary.

next time she wears hijab and an abaya still with sneakers on which I thought hey that looks good on her! She start walking down the street and I guess it’s the different street around the same area but guess what...

no one tease her or even look at her like she’s some kind of “meat” or treat.

and

I’m literally crying watching that scene. You probably don’t understand or won’t understand this but that’s the moment for me to realized that this “so called obligation” is made by Allah because He loves us so much. We never wear it for anyone except to please Allah in the first place. Things got rough when people start to making up things on their mind like how it related with oppressing the women or thinking that it must be so hot to be covered like that and how you don’t seem to get your freedom because of that thing on your head.

That is silly.

can’t tell you much but it’s like another kind of love striking my heart.

You can never tell the depth of Allah’s love for us.

[scottpym222]

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[hamburgerdipshit]

Dutch Apple pie with dulce de leche ice cream?! Hells yes

[teuerundbillig]

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[afrohijab]

AHHH

[volcanicacid]

I look worse and worse everyday. Ew.

[bitsanddangerousmemories]

I'm getting fatter each day.

But the thing is, the monster inside me is eating me inside out.