#i'm shit.

[queemie]

i had two panic attacks today and i could barely smile and pretend i was happy or ok. idk how much longer i can take.

[incisores]

i knew it, god.

[danigonerogue]

I truly hate myself sometimes...

[iikale]

My mind is like an open field on the 4th of July,

and my thoughts are fire works. 

Put one in the middle; the central idea. The main attraction. 

Think on it to much, and you’ll light it on fire. 

Shooting out unwanted thoughts into my beautiful night sky. 

Smoking up the once clear view I had. 

No. These aren’t fireworks. 

In the past maybe. But not today. 

Today it’s tear gas. 

[owoicide]

idk i feel like an apathetic asshole for not really chatting much for the past couple of weeks.

[bioluminsky-blog]

i was trying to put on make up so i could go to john's without feeling like shit, but then i managed to hurt myself ugh.

[igaveherasoda]

sorry about the absence.. lately things have been very rough for me, and i'm mentally not prepared for what's been happening. i don't know for how long i'll be staying off roleplaying, but for now i can't even concentrate about a single thing without feeling shitty. i was really excited for this blog too.

[littleseagoat]

And I am truly truly sorry if I have not: messaged you back, called you back, texted you back, replied to your snapchat, cancelled plans, or have agreed to hang out without actually doing anything about it. 

Right now, I'm just trying to get through the nights in one piece. I am unstable and I do not have the usual strength to put on my mask and crack a joke and make you all laugh. I'm sorry. I'm so afraid to leave my house because I know that it will only take one trigger for me to break my own bones.   

I'm sorry.