Saw your tags on post: do you ever just realize that you’re not a good person #Meeeeeee#If there's anything I've come to terms with recently it's this#I'm pretty sure my moral compass is broken#Or non-existent - Why aren't you a good person? What happened? What's your view on the Kane investigation?
Sighs. Okay well to start,I’ve been realizing over the last year or so that I don’t really have the moralviews that most people seem to about a lot of things. For instance, I waswatching Big Love over the summer and realized that I don’t see polygamy aswrong/bad if someone chooses it. I mean that’s a small/stupid example butthat’s how I feel about a lot of things that are illegal for moral reasons.Also while I do try and do certain things to be a better person, I also don’tgo out of my way to do a lot of things that I know would make me a good person.I just feel like it’s human nature to assume you’re a good person but for thosereasons among others I feel like I’m coming to terms with the idea that I’m not.
But yeah part of that posthad a lot to do with the Kane thing because my thoughts/feelings towards thatsituation are extremely complicated (And I guess if I was a good person theywouldn’t be, ya know). I don’t really know how to word it. If this washappening with literally anyone else on any other team that I support I wouldprobably feel the “right” way about it but with him it’s completelydifferent. The amount of fangirling or whatever you want to call it I do over him on my blog isn’t even closeto the amount that I actually do. Over the past 2 years it’s gotten to a prettydisgusting level so to say this whole thing has been pretty rough is a hugeunderstatement. Something that I’ve always thought to myself but never said isthat I think about him way more than I’d actually admit to anyone and that’sjust as true now as it was before which is extremely shitty. I’ve been nauseousabout it, I’ve cried about it blah blah blah but I honestly don’t think I feelthe way I should about him or the situation and that has made me feel prettybad about myself too. So yeah the last month has pretty much reaffirmed my “I’mcrap” theory.
