I've been thinking LONGGG and hard about this au, especially since I just watched some batman movies and uhh now I have a brainrot help
I'd think it'd be so peak if Kamimura's suit was like some robot mechanical suit he built himself? like, a ironman or mechaman situation - where it'd also help regulate his body during battle so he doesn't clock out too soon LOL
tbh if I go crazy enough I'll just write this into a fic myself ong
My mom and I decided to go fishing today, but everything didn't go according to plan.
We quickly got tired of sitting in one place, and we went to the fields. We found an amazing place with lotuses there. This is the first time I've seen them in person. Yellow pots are familiar to me, but white lotuses turned out to be something new.
The problem started with the fishing rods, which were both six meters long. My mother got tangled in the trees. She's a nervous person with mild Tourette's syndrome, so it was accompanied by a lot of swearing. She tried to free herself, but she only got more tangled. In the end, she cursed loudly, broke the fishing rod, threw it aside, and said, "Fmeowck this fishing."
My situation wasn't much better. I was also getting tangled, but I have a strong nerve. But I didn't notice that I had cut my fingers with the hook. I only realized it at the end.
I walked a little further and found the perfect place without trees. I gave my fishing rod to mother, and went to explore the surroundings. The whole beach was covered with lotuses, and for some reason I firmly decided: I need them. I got into the water. Right in the clothes. The bottom turned out to be muddy, slimy, sucking and with algae (brrr... I don't like that). But I got closer anyway, and I still couldn't reach it.
It started raining. It's a good thing for me: I love the rain. Then, out of the corner of my eye, I noticed a huge striped spider. As the water lilies shook, the spider crawled under the water, and I suddenly lost the urge to continue. However, I was already waist-deep in the water, and I decided, "If I've started, I'll see it through." AND I DID IT.
When I got out, I noticed a huge, spreading willow tree.
It was the perfect tree to climb. It was so wide that I didn't even climb it, I just walked on it. I climbed all the way to the top of the willow (almost falling once) and found IT in a crevice near the roots.
Do you know what this is? THE HORNS OF A STAG BEETLE. A rare species from the Red Book! I've never seen them in person, but I've always dreamed of encountering them in the wild. Now, my dream has come true, albeit partially.
Next, I found a wild apple tree. The apples were bitter. Then I found a flowering willow. The smell was amazing. Then I found some unfamiliar flowers. And I came across a lawn filled with dragonflies.
You know, it's a sin not to catch some. I also picked some sage for tea, which is very helpful for illnesses.
Meanwhile, the rain was getting heavier. In the distance, we could see a dark, blurry wall of rain. If we didn't hurry, we wouldn't be able to get out, as we had driven through the fields.
...
We didn't make it in time. The rain washed away the dusty road, turning it into mud. The car got stuck. No matter how hard we tried to get out, it was no use. We had to get out and push it through the rain. We were covered in mud from head to toe. It took us half an hour, but we finally got out.
okay i need to yap crazily like this is just all rambling and thoughts i want off my chest. don't mind me. imagine if i could write fics this long i'm crying (honestly you're all lucky i'm writing one long post and i wasn't crazy spamming (kati took the brunt of that bless her😭))
edit: wym 2k words. i am not reading any of this over to see if it makes sense
tldr: i love xnghan, wow i love seunghan, i love xoul, everything is amazing, (tw: rii7e), wow i can't believe we're here, i'm so proud of him, wow how is this real, gay, i love everything, gay, glazing, cringe, gay, no.1 glazer, i'm really so proud of him, can't believe this is real, i love seunghan, did u know i love seunghan? etc etc sybau
world stop. what a day omfg. where do i even start i feel like everything is happening and even my content hungry beast can't keep up. hani's debut gave me an excitement like no other i can't remember the last time i was that excited for anything especially not recently. i've been keeping up with seunghan so closely obviously since he opened his account and then with the announcement of his music and with the live streams and kyoyul being introduced, watching them as they let us in bit by bit has been such an unreal joy. i'm just so happy like i haven't stopped smiling all damn day. starting the day with the mv and then watching the showcase live had my face hurting i'm so serious. the whole thing is just perfect. the mv, the styling, his vocals, the concept, the choreo, the lyrics the sticky notes . the fucking sticky notes bro. tears. it's just all perfect. i've never experienced such a sentimental debut and i'm so happy to be here for it after everything that's happened. it really all feels full circle.
i didn't want to talk about riize or how i'd been feeling toward the whole situation for a while because it's still so bittersweet. like i obviously can't help but think of them and how different things could've been. in a way none of this should've ever happened yk? nothing was wrong at all, he never did anything, he didn't deserve any of that, they never deserved any of that. and wether it's the fans to blame or the company to blame first it doesn't really matter now. unfortunately the reality is that you really can't change the past. i could wish for rii7e still like ik a lot still do but as much as i hate to admit it he really is better off as far away from the toxic ones in that fandom as he can get. they kicked him out...and they're still not happy, riize are doing amazing and they're still not happy. that tells you enough really. seeing xnghan wish riize well felt bittersweet too, u can't help but feel like that's where he should be, he should've been on the stage all that time with them, touring, celebrating, making more memories. but you can't change what's happened, you can only look forward and do what you can with what's in front of you. which seunghan has done. and i can't properly convey through words how much i admire him for that. it was inevitable that he'd be asked about riize at some point, i'm just glad he was allowed to say what he did, professional, meaning well and just rounding it up nicely. i can't see riize being allowed to say the same, though they don't need to say it publically to mean it, we all know they're still in contact and they'll never hate eachother how some of those fans desparately want them to, it would be nice to shut some of them up tho. rii7e was something i was so set on for so long and in a perfect world we'd still have that. but we don't. and that's exactly it like, what do we do now yk? i was skeptical as to why they couldn't just put him back in but in a way that was kinda selfish of me? not that anyone still wishing for rii7e is selfish, that's not what i mean, i just mean personally, because why on earth would i want him to be thrown to the same sharks. and this isn't oh wow seunghan is back so who gaf about rii7e now !! it's wow he's happy and this is what he wants to do, so i'll support him. that seems like a chapter he's fully ready to close now, he said it himself he wants to 'burn xnghan as a soloist into our brains' and if that's what he wants then who are we to argue yk? sure maybe he shouldn't be a soloist because none of that ever should've happened, maybe it wasn't his idea initially, maybe it was, none of that matters now. he is. and he's happy and that's what matters. taking a situation like that and coming back after everything is unbelievably commendable. that's why i feel like the whole thing is so important, his resolve is so insane. to still want to do what your doing despite people in your immediate vicinity not just hating you but sending funeral wreaths? for smoking? and having a gf? i feel like a lot of people don't realize the actual weight of that. imagine being shamed (for something completely normal btw) not only by people online but publically. physically. your friends' fans sending funeral wreaths as if you were a dead person and them sitting outside your place of work for everybody to see. all at 21. i would stack shelves in a very distant country. absolute maniacal behavior. but you get the gist. still following his dreams and blowing it out the park like this with a smile on his face and the heart of an angel is the most wonderful outcome.
that pic of him reading the sticky notes on the billboard is so cemented in my mind and so cemented in this comeback (for me anyways). taking something life changing, holding onto the best parts and turning the whole thing in your favor. that's king. giving back to the people that stuck by him and not giving up on his dreams, using it all as like look! i'm here!! thank you!! is just the most beautiful thing ever. i had this fear that they would give him crumbs and put him back in the basement, a lot of people did actually and a lot of others said he couldn't do even that. and look where he is. two dancers beside him and a whole brand. what. clothes, merch, two AMAZING songs, creative direction out the wazoo, choreo, writing credits he's doing it all. and he's here to stay. watching him since smrookies to now has been amazing, rocky to say the least but seeing where he is now is like the most hopecore thing ever. and it's only the beginning. he wants to do so much and be so much and i believe he could shoot for the moon if he wanted at this point. i want to write fuck like 300 times. how are we here. how is this all real. like how have i not woken up yet??? if you had told me in october we'd be here i'd have laughed you out of the room. i keep saying it's so unbelievable and then i see how much he's done and his growth and it's like actually no this is very believable. he's loved by so many. and he has so much love to give back :(
the waste no time mv had me cheesing like a mad person (like i haven't been the whole day) like i was so happy i couldn't even cry. the whole mv being just summer fun, friendship, hanging out like wow suddenly i'm a summer fan. the fits, the little bits of acting they're so cute and funny. mongolia???? like come on. they're doing everything. the whole mv tbh was so freeing, like them driving (forward) and the horses running and uggdhdndn it's so !!!!!! yeah. the lyrics. ohhh the lyrics. "flowers crushed on the chosen path" "not finding the right answer" to "we can't afford to spend time looking back today" too right. SUN IS UP RIISIIING WONDER MODE DIIIVE IN it's so fawking catchy bro and it's literally just so fun and fun and fun and friendship and playing and opportunities and future and and and YES. also one little bit of the mv i loved in particular was the bow and arrow part like he was taking the flames and turning them to firworks by aiming/shooting for the sky? hello? licking each of my fingers, delectable. i wasn't gonna get freaky but CROP TOPS!!!! MIDRIFFS!!!!! TUMMYYYY!!!!!! SLUTTY LITTLE CARWASH!!!!! GETTING WET!!!! I LOVE THAT FLUFFY HAT ON HIM AND HIS ARMS AND HIS TINY WAIST AND AAAAJDHHSJS I'M GOING TO EAT HIM anyways. heavenly blue. now. when i heard the instrumental through the lives i clapped. edm?? yeah for me. it was a breath of fresh air i was like oh yeah he's taking it. and then i heard him sing and i cried. and then the little performance clip came out and i bawled. the choreo???? i've seen it so many times i could probably do it. /j. put me in coach. i love it so much. i love that they made it and that it fits the whole vibe of the song like the way they move together and the way they also embrace seunghan. sobs. you found me like it's magical. hit me with a hammer. the lyrics of this one being his true feelings towards fans actually rips my organs out my throat. i won't harp on too long w these ones bc i could write an essay on these alone but from "my heart is stained in shades of grey" to "you painted over me" i need to put my head through a wall. i'm so grateful to everyone who supported him and waited for him too. the whole song is actually stunning like,,,he rly just sounds like that,,damn. AND THAT BRIIIIDGE. ascending to the heavens. i need that full performance clip like the blue sky is so perfect blue rly is his colour and him running forward with kyoyul and the dance and the white shirts and it's just :c sobs, wails, it's so beautiful and again hopecore as fawk, it rly makes you feel lighter i'm sooooo the sky was even blue and the sun was shining for me today despite it being raining the rest of the week before, the sun rly knows fr.
the showcase. ohhh the showcase. i can't believe i watched that live. how are we here. wow. what a time to be alive. so many accounts i've followed for a while managed to get into the showcase it was so cute actually raaah so happy for them. but yeah i was shaaaking bruh and then they came on the stage DOING HEAVENLY BLUE and i lost it. the tears. seeing them together like on the stage together for the first time,,,monumental,stupendous my heart bursting into a bajillion tiny pieces. seeing seunghan on the stage is crack like nothing else i'm serious, the choreo, the synchronization, the footwork, HIS VOCALS?????? kyo doing a freaking one handed cartwheel 10s ACROSS THE BOOOOARRDD. wow zyn when dancers dance 😍 their little introduction as seunghan saying xnghan and then the other two saying and xoul it's perfect. them all wearing the badges. it's all perfect. i love that we're literally learning about their dynamic during debut i can't wait to see more of them like they're just so damn likeable, kyo being the extrovert, tallest maknae is so funny to me and yul being as shy as he is despite looking the toughest (crispy tofu as seunghan called him. i have to die) i love that they're a three too like they rly do feel like just 3 friends doing the coolest project ever together i love that vibe they have, like a creative trio and they're all different in their own ways but they mesh so well together yada yada yada u get it. i love them. xoul. i'm so thankful to kyoyul too, they really hype him up so so much and it's so cute and they're so down to earth and obviously incredibly talented hello. kyo screaming into the mic and laughing so loud had me giggling so much i hope they're by seunghan's side for a long time. the way seunghan seems so fond of them too, in that interview him saying he's so comfortable with them and he feels he can truly be himself with them because they share the same aspirations n stuff heart EXPLODED we should all LIIIIIVEEEE. i'm still smiling now as i sleepily type this, i feel like a crazy person i should've been asleep 2 hours ago. i'm just so so happy for him. i love how involved he is with it all, the vibe, the visions, the physical music itself obviously, the creative direction and the team he has behind them seem so strong. i just hope it can continue this way. how tf do i wrap this novel up i can't stop typing omfg. i'm just so happyyyyy. i'm so proud. he's come so far and yet he has so much ahead of him. his drive is insane i'm just so in awe at how he's blooming rn, taking everything flipping it all on its head and creating something greater, bigger, it's incredibly inspirational. thinking about how he said he promises he won't let us ever wait that long again. jumps. the sticky notes. jumps. the colourful confetti like the well wishes are raining down on him. JUMPS. can't believe we have stages, performances, variety shows, behinds, content, S M TOWN, so much is going on it's all happening he rly said waste no time. how is this real. how will i keep up and with any semblance of sanity. this whole thing is so cringe and gay but i dooooon't caaaaaaarreeeeee whatever whatever. WDYM I'LL HAVE A XNGHAN ALBUM. HIS. HIM. XOUL. THEM. whatever. actually don't care at aaaalll. my face hurts.
guys i think i like seunghan a little. no amalgamation of stupid reaction pics could fully describe the scope of emotions i've been feeling all day and that's why i had to get this all out my system. okay pack it up. mind you this is day 1...before any stages... THE OUTFITS, ENDING FAIRIES, CELEBRATIONS, I'M GOING TO DIE. thank you seunghan for being you and xoul for supporting his dreams. about 127 explosions in my house. i'm so fucking excited for his future and i'm so happy he's here. and if u actually read all this ur crazy and here is a little kiss 💋 and stream waste no time and heavenly blue <3
i cannot for the life of me move on from these pics. expect more crazy posting tbh goodnight
why am i genuinely so crazy and excited about twenty one pilots and the story they made. it's all i've been thinking about for the last 2.5-3 weeks. i feel insane. i'm so excited about it man i feel crazy.
