Kalediscope
Every morning that I wake I feel myself begin to break As my frame starts to shake Unsure how much of it I can take
I don’t understand why I exist Who I am and if I’m to persist I could go ahead and write a list Of all the reasons I shouldn’t resist
I don’t say much but I have heard All this hatred and every word To the point, my mind has blurred Resulting in thoughts being stirred
Unsure why I’m the subject of hate Especially when I don’t instigate There’s already enough on my plate Without the envy that it penetrates
“Why do you always fake autism?” I’m told to die along with my egotism As if you knew what kind of mission My brain goes on to get recognition
“Listen to opinions of those who matter” Even when I feel like I’m ‘bout to shatter? Each time you talk you plant a sunflower But I really don’t think I have the power
In me when I’m in a scope Spinning ‘round like a kaleidoscope The target’s locked on my forehead Striking me down with their warhead
I have this compromise When I live inside a disguise If you looked into my eyes I say “I’m okay” while telling lies
A lethal dart straight to the heart At six feet under I’d play the part? Weights on my shoulders are heavy Invisibility is what I felt already
All I’m wanting is to be free From all the hatred and misery As the stars align, I can tell you straight Nobody sees the signs ‘til it’s too late