Retrouvailles
Retrouvailles n. the feeling one gets after reuniting after a long time.
This is what I’m longing for since summer. But things got in the way. I guess that's what things are for --- they always get in the way. And by things, I mean exhausting work and inconsiderate relatives. I am not blaming them (although it looks like one, but it's not). As a matter of fact, I am grateful because they're the reason why I bought a new phone. But I can't forgive them for the retrouvailles part.
Once in a year, me and my high school colleagues always see to it that we meet. This is our way of keeping up with each other's lives. This year's plan was to try ice skating and go bowling. I was the one who suggested it. But it's like fate has played a trick on me, and never stopped because (a) he seemed to enjoy it, so (b) I didn't get to join them. Hence, either (c) they got mad at me or (d) they didn't care at all because (e) I'm annoying, (f) I'm a buzz-kill, or worse (g) I'm not part of the group anymore.
I don't wanna be left behind (Who wants to? Duh?!). I am not blaming anyone or anything here. I am blaming myself because I'm the one who blew it all up. It all backfired to me. All I want is for us to not grow apart. All I want is to feel the retrouvailles. But it never happened.
