just feeling so down and heartbroken by this fandom lately 💔💔💔
"veteran larrie" thoughts below 🙃
I've been in this fandom for so long (since July 2012), and things similar to this used to happen a lot, but it was never this serious. People genuinely fearing for their safety and wellbeing to the point their real life outside of fandom is being impacted. At least two people now having to scrub pretty much all traces of themselves off the internet over expressing something that's supposed to be an enjoyable hobby.
And really, I don't get it.
But sadly, as long as there's as much involvement emotionally and psychologically on all "sides", there's engagement, which in itself is a product to be sold today. Unfortunately, because of that, I don't think much will ever change at this point unless it gets really bad, which I think is both highly possible and very likely in the near future. *Newsflash, it's already really bad*. Is that really all we are? Just engagement and consumers? Maybe, probably.
I would really like to keep staying positive and keep having hope that someone will possibly care enough to intervene somehow before it gets even worse than it already is, but I just don't think that's realistic. Nor do I even know how that would be possible at this point.
Like where would you even begin here? This fandom feels so irreparably broken and toxic. Things have gone way too far and gotten so out of hand beyond what is normal or healthy. And who's letting it happen? Who's turning a blind eye to it repeatedly? Why is no one addressing the elephant in the room? Why is no one doing anything?
I really just feel like this is reaching a boiling point and a point of no return, and it really is "that deep". It's not just a fun little thing anymore. Reality is, it is and has been absolutely astronomical in size and impact and somehow still just goes unaddressed.
How much longer can we do this, seriously? What are any of us trying to achieve? What is the end goal? What point does this have to reach?
It's been fifteen fucking years!!!! It's not magically going away.
Does being or feeling a sense of being "right" or "wrong" really matter that much? Is it worth it?
I think we need to remember we are all quite literally in the same fandom with a shared interest of someone(s) who happens to make music for a living. All of this discourse is getting so ridiculous, and dangerous for everyone. This is really getting to be too much for me even as long as I've been here and I'm not sure how much more I can do.
This is supposed to be a hobby, an escape, an enjoyable way to spend free time. The joy and optimism is fading, being replaced with stress and dread. Tbh, I'm having trouble even looking forward to AFHF and new music at this point. I'm trying, but it feels like there's this elephant-in-the-room shaped cloud hanging around. It's unfortunate and I know I'm not alone in these feelings, which is why I'm choosing to share them.
I've had my anonymous messages turned off on here for close to 3 years now due to receiving an influx of threatening, hateful, and harassing messages on a daily basis. Is this really how we're choosing to spend our time in fandom spaces? Even still? And for what?
Can we please just do better? Look out for each other? Treat people with kindness? Dedicate our time to healthier, happier, more positive things?
I feel devastated and such a deep disappointment at the state of this whole fandom space anymore. 💔
mmmm i want to say no because i need gojo to keep being alive, and there's some interesting symbolism that could point to the idea of gojo reawakening again (ie; the lotus flowers), but i honestly don't know.. like he could come back and lose his curse technique from overuse in that final push.. but he could also stay dead.
i have my own opinions about like... what gojo dying here means from a narrative standpoint. if gojo stays dead, his storyline with kenjaku / getou's body will probably never really get resolved, which feels a little lackluster to me because a lot of the story is based on them and their dynamic. but on another hand, it makes sense for yuuji to be the one to face off against sukuna, perpetuating a cycle of violence between loved ones caused by jujutsu society (gojo is to getou as yuuji is to megumi). i also think, as an argument for both outcomes, that it makes sense for gojo to have awakened his technique against toji, only for him to lose it / lose entirely to toji's son. i also think gojo losing his cursed technique would be a good opportunity for gojo to discover whether or not he's gojo satoru because he's the strongest, or if he's the strongest because he's gojo satoru. like it also suits gojo's storyline, especially after the "i felt separated from other living things" comment.
my most feared thought tho... is that kenjaku was betting on gojo losing against sukuna in order to take gojo's body and collect his cursed technique. which like.. if that happened idk how the others would beat him, but it is a possibility. it makes sense for kenjaku, as well as wraps up the issue of gojo / kenjaku / getou's unresolved storyline and would present the irony of gojo and getou not only dying on the same day a year apart, but both being shared by kenjaku. but that's a fear for ANOTHER DAY!
i guess it's like.. im leaning towards gojo being for real dead in my logical brain, but my heart of hearts is still bargaining. i think it could go either way.. all i rly know tho is that it's gonna hurt REAL bad 😭 idk if any of this makes sense but it's what i think in the most condensed form i could put it.
