...the moment of denying that I know is lost forever. I wasted my time believing & trust these people. ''Classmates are not real friends.'' What she said was right. I tried to give a slight denial out of it before this. I tried to deny it again and again. It's over. I'm tired, so tired of this. I'm starting to feel used up for something. Someone misused my loyalty. It's an extremely painful jaded thought and I felt my time was wasted when I flashback all the events. In the end, I felt I was used after all.
Now, I should live my life with those who never try to do that. It might cost me to be considered as a selfish person in front of people who don't know what is going on and might also cost me to be quiet in some classes. I don't care. I was shocked. ''I'm still the hoper of far-flung hopes'' to other human complexes but not this matter. What's the use to believe that they will give any slight help or guidance when you need it while actually they just don't give a damn?