Well...This is my first post I guess, and I feel very awkward posting here, considering I’m mostly a lurker. To everyone I know I guess- I’m kind of in a wheelchair for I don’t know how long....I’m super fucking anxious about it. I’m tired of bottling up my thoughts also- which ultimately makes me more anxious. I’m failing almost all of my classes, and I don’t know what to do. I feel like I’m falling into a black hole. I feel out of place at school(not like home is any better). I’m usually so calm and collected on the outside, but no one knows the “real me” per say. So, hello, I’m Ben, I’m 17, and this is me: a very anxious person who doesn’t really show his emotion too much(not on purpose anyway). I drown myself in music and videogames to keep my thoughts at bay. I never thought I would ever actually post on here instead of reblogging something, but I can’t express myself though pictures on the internet.