#infjdiary

[staynumbluckystar]

i got a reel about the broken bone theory a few days ago and i have not been the same since. like no broken bones but yeah a lot of emotional struggles and my body is still failing me with my chronic illness (╥﹏╥)

[8luedream]

BD>5

From my own fire of destruction Ive been burned to the ground My ashes blew upwards with the wind and my emotions cant be held in They push and pull inside every edge of me and i lash out without noticing There is a hidden pain with sugar coated smiles From where does it stem How long have you been sitting there? How long have you been still? How long have you been waiting? There is no light in your eyes where is it you stare blankly and empty to? Did you burn out too quickly from your fabulous flames?

[infjdiary]

Reminder to myself that being present, even if it’s only for a minute or two, is so peaceful. Take a break from thinking ahead.

[infjdiary]

To me, Fe-Ti is easy to understand, and I find this axis in myself easily. On the flip, I have a hard time understanding Fi, but I think I’ve finally found a proxy way to understand.

During sessions, my therapist will often ask, “how does this make you feel” or “how are you feeling today”- and I’ve usually answered by saying “I think I feel…”. And, usually I’m searching for both the words & the emotions that I am feeling within myself. I have to actively focus on saying “I feel” instead of “I think”. To me, this screams Ti (maybe also Ni).

On the flip side, Fi descriptions often emphasize the self-referencing to internal emotions, and I assume that (most) Fi-users do the opposite of what I do. It’s natural to start with “I feel” and their default is knowing how they are feeling and being able to easily point to it.

Is this on track? Are there any Fi-users out there that can verify or elaborate?

[infjdiary]

I recently had to do some writing, and I realized that my writing process is and has been to procrastinate, flounder for a bit, then my mind blanks and all of a sudden I’ve written something out. Is this dom Ni? Cuz I hate it.

[infjdiary]

it’s been a while...

sometimes I wonder if I’m the friend that nobody likes in the friend group

[8luedream]

BD>3

I want to continue to believe, as hard as I can.  When it all seems so bleak and the world has proven too much I hope to still have my imagination The places where no one can reach me Places that I have a thousand names for and a thousand places with no names The sky is the sea within the world of connection Millions and millions of bright sporadic lights Flying on invisible lines This is my place, inside my head Where i have tea with my demons and death fights with my angels I can swim within space and reality has no meaning I can fly under the ground and along the clouds wings My mind is my area, free of any plagues and insecurities My mind is where i can unfold the world, see the right, the wrong, and the gray My Human Mind

[8luedream]

BD>1

Is there an idea that the world runs on love? How physical and real is that energy?

Can it carve out the hate and sorrow? The love that I have seen,  I cant tell if its real When i look into peoples eyes, where is this light Ive heard about?

When i see people hold hands and watch each other Is that what it is?  The electricity and fire that seems to be unstoppable Is that what the world sees? Acceptance Peace Joy Love  Passion Heat and Serendipity  Entangled in my confusion of Love and Hatred