hi my love how are youu?? if you want, i'd love to read something about "catching my breath, catching my death", i loved it so much!
Gio hiiii I'm good, a little tried.
So, 'catching my breath, catching my death', originally titled 'catching my breath (barefoot in the wildest winter catching my death)' was inspired and based off of the song Evermore.
I had the idea in like, March 2021 but I couldn't complete it till September. During the whole period, I almost lost two people to suicide and I had to be the one to talk then out of it, to go through that period where they wouldn't reply and you'd be sick to your stomach just thinking about losing them and as someone who has the fear of losing loved ones it kinda messed me up a little.
I fell in love with the whole concept of having that feeling like the pain is gonna be forever, standing there in the cold wind barefoot and just numbing yourself instead of trying to process it because you don't want anymore hurt, the devastation of losing everyone you loved, the devastation of being in love with someone and seeing them in that sort of agony, just thinking whether there's a line you could cross and just end all of it.
But then finding hope. Hope, love, prospect, light. The warmth when you finally stop numbing yourself in the winter and step back into the warm house, you heal like the warmth crawling up your body- slowly, but surely. So it was a bunch of messy emotions and thoughts channelled into 3000 something words!
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