#it's... hard

[shiawasekai]

I found a youtube channel with a 24/7 stream of their ferret litters (they're a very reputable breeder from what i've seen). Eternal happiness.

[12serve]

stan yamaguchi and shiina ringo 

[alandraculafancast]

ah yep, there's another one. Okay, at least that new one is cute. Much nicer than the glowy eye monsters you put before.

Oh! That makes sense now. he does sound like he's a good boy, even if deer are inherently creepy :P

[nancynailbat]

new extreme sport: avoiding undertale/deltarune rune memes by scrolling at lightspeed because you Haven't Finished the game yet

[spaceyweirdo]

my gender is (tv static) but call me a he or they

[amatara]

I keep typing up personal posts and then not posting them. I feel stuck and I don't know how to get unstuck; everything I try feels like using a spoon to chip away at a wall that really needs a bulldozer to tear down. Not sure how much of this is just me having trouble coping at work (and only by extension coping with everything else) and how much of it is bigger than that. I wish I could talk to someone but I'm afraid to, because there's every chance that once I start I won't be able to stop, and I couldn't bear for people to leave halfway through because they find it's all too much for them. (So don't worry, I'm not going to ambush you or anyone with my shit the moment you try to talk to me. Promise.) I'm grateful for every bit of company and comfort, but there's something missing and I don't know how I can find it again.

Is this what they call a burnout? Not sure. Maybe I'm just turning this into something worse than it is. We all get lonely, we all get sad, and I have less reason to be like that than many others. I try not to let things slide, to make my own happiness and find companionship where I can and smile about the little things. I just ... It's hard for me to see the big picture now, when every little thing feels awkward and wrong.