today me and miko had plans today. As one of them meeting her friends, producers, everybody today. “oye ya nos vamos a ir, cambiase.” <> “hey we are going to leave, go change.” “okay está bien miko!” <> “okay sounds good miko!” Going into my room, deciding which outfit to wear. One was a shirt that had cute hearts on it with a pair of baggy jeans. The other was a blue shirt with daisy’s on it with a skirt. I chose the shirt that had cute hearts on them. Coming out as a greeting miko with a kiss “ya estoy lista vamos!” <> “I’m ready let’s go!” I gave her a peck on the cheek. “Oye! Eso es mi cosita!” <> “Hey! That’s my thing!” I say bye to my cats (always) we get into the car, and start driving to her studio.
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I start getting nervous in the car. “porque estás nerviosa bebe, todo va estar bien mami” <> “why are you nervous baby, everything is going to be okay mama” we start going inside, she first introduced me mariana, her best friend who has been doing everything with her since the first day. On going I meet Caleb and Mauro, her producers who have been helping her since day one. “Y quien es ella?” <> “and who is she?” Someone says. “Ella es mi novia” miko says <> “she’s my girlfriend” “tienes novia?, ay que pena podría haber tu y yo.” <> “you have a girlfriend?, aw what a shame could’ve been you and me.” “Miko..” “oye mejor que ya introduzcan a los otros!” Mariana said <> “hey it’s better for them to introduce the others!” “Yeah!” As Mauro agrees.
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I give that one girl a look. As I turn around, we start meeting the other friends that have helped on miko’s career as a rapper. “Miko! Ven aquí te quiero contar algo.” <> “Miko! Come here I want to tell you something.” “okay! Espera me aquí va vengo bebe” <> “okay! Wait here I’m coming back baby” she give me a kiss before she heads of. Mariana starts talking to me about how did we meet and all that stuff. I keep looking at miko and that one girl. She keeps touching miko a lot. I start to get jealous. But I focus on what mariana is telling me. I tell myself one last look. I turn around and see the girl being all over her. I began getting furious. “Oye me estás escuchando?” <> “hey are you listening to me?” marina said “si estoy escuchando!” “Yeah I am listening!.” “mariana oye no mi estoy sintiendo bien mejor que yo y miko voy a la casa..” <> “mariana hey im not feeling well it’s better if me and miko go home..” <> “okay esta bien!” <> “okay sounds good” “hope you feel better!” mariana says. I give her a smile. As I walk over to miko with that girl all over her..” “miko no mi estoy sintiendo bien vamos a la casa.” <> “miko im not feeling good, let’s home.” “Ay que pena, ya pues adiós miko!” <> “Aw what a shame, okay well bye miko!” The girl said. “bye! no te sintieses bien mami, entonces vamos a la casa.” <> “bye! You don’t feel good mama, let’s go to the house then.”
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I don’t talk to her the whole car ride. As we got inside, I go lay down in our room. “Que pasa mami, esta molesta conmigo, porque?” <> “what happened mami, are you mad at me, why?” “no estoy molesta.” <> “I’m not mad.” “No mientes lo puedo ver.” <> “Don’t lie I can see.” “Tú quieres sabe porque estoy molesta es porque está niña estaba ensimismada a ti tocando te todos los lados!” <> “ do you wanna know why I’m mad, because that girl was all over you and touching you of all different directions!” “Aw mi bebe está celosita de otra mujeres.” <> “Aw my baby is jealous of other woman.” I turn around and don’t look at her. “mami” “todos saben” <> “mamá” “everyone knows” I try to protest “pero ella!” <> “but her!” “pero bebe yo solo quiero a ti, no a ella” <> “But baby I only want you, not her” “ahora bien aquí te voy a bañar te con besitos!” <> “now come here I’m going to shower you with kisses!”
It all started in one day, when I opened Instagram.
“Hey! Wake up, we have to go to the studio.”
“okay! I’m going to get ready, just give me a few minutes.”
I check on phone, opening Instagram. Miko posted.?.. With a caption saying “this girl is driving me crazy!” I get confused, maybe it’s just a friend!
I try not to overthink it, as I start to get ready. I put on a simple outfit. A baggy t-shirt and jeans. I brush my teeth, and wash my face. Then brush my hair, and put it in a low ponytail. I head out to the living room “ready let’s go.” — “Alright” we start driving to the studio. It’s not that far just a 10 minute drive.
—————————————————————————“hey? you kind of seem out of it you okay?” — “huh? yeah I’m fine..” that Instagram post is still running through my head. “we’re here come on.” We start walking towards the studio. The first people I see are mariana, and mauro. “Hey! How are you guys?” mauro asked — “we are good! how about you guys?” my producer replied “good!”—“alright” they responded “hey! they arrived, why didn’t you guys tell me?” miko asked “maybe cause you’re too busy with your “girl-friend” on the phone” mariana snickered — “mariana!” mauro playfully hit her on the shoulder. “You have a girlfriend..?…” — “ she’s not my girlfriend… well at least not yet.” “I only like her for now.” — “oh” “why did you bring me here?” I asked my producer — “I brought you here so we can catch up on some things..” im truly trying my best not to cry in the spot.. I try to fake a call “hold on someone’s calling me..” I try to make it like my mother needs help on doing something. “hey guys? my mom needs my help on something at home, I need to go urgently..” — “okay! I hope whatever your mom needs help on is fixed.!..” miko replied — “me too!” mariana and mauro responded as well — “hey I’m going to take the car, is it okay for someone to bring you home?” I asked my producer “yeah it’s fine I’ll ask mariana to bring me home.!..” — “oh okay, we’ll bye guys hope you catch up with each other!..” “bye!” they all replied. I speed walk to the car, bursting into tears.
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as I got home I start to question myself “am I not good enough for her?” — “I knew she thought I was crazy!” I start to think bad about myself.. I start crying, which ends up me having an anxiety attack. The person who has always helped was miko.. I control my breathing, how did she not get all the hints that I’ve been giving her?! She’s the first girl I have ever had a crush on. I throw myself onto the bed with constantly thinking bad thoughts about me. It finally hit me. She was talking about that girl she liked on the Instagram caption.. I start doing the thing that I’m mostly good at. Stalking. I look through her follows, I found the girl. She’s beautiful, gorgeous all these things I’m probably not. I guess I knew why miko chose her. I hope one day I will move on. maybe i can’t.…
