#jaddasroots

[elfyourmother]

i jsut wanted to shoot a message that i hadn't meant it as like a "nier is good actually and u should feel bad for not liking it" and moreso "i agree nier is out of place, but i feel not anymore so than any of the other raids". I apologize if thats not how the message was received and i thought we were just discussing it

I appreciate that, but I understood what you meant by the second reblog. Here’s the thing though: I didn’t agree with that at all, and I really didn’t want to get into a debate about it. I was venting in my own space about Nier, because I was in a bad mood having just done the raid, and was freshly reminded of why I hated it so much in the first place.

I just need to explain where i’m coming from though. When I’m venting on my blog about something that bothers me it’s never done with the intention to open the floor so to speak for discussion or debate about said thing. One of the reasons I set this as a hard boundary is because it’s legitimately triggering to me, because my abusive ex-roommate weaponized fandom as her primary tool of abuse towards myself and our other roommates. The only correct opinion in the house about anything was hers. If you didn’t agree with it, you were wrong and stupid and probably childish. I was honestly never allowed to express my feelings about anything without being emotionally and on at least one occasion physically attacked. I have lizard brain trauma from this as a result and that’s why I deliberately don’t get into it with people about fandom things for the most part. Because then last night happens, when I got legitimately triggered and my brain flipped into fight or flight mode. You didn’t mean anything by it and it wasn’t your fault, I don’t blame you for it at all, but this happens a lot, where I’m venting about something and then somebody has to “well, actually” me about it. The end result is feeling like I can’t express myself in my own space, because see above. And then I feel angry and resentful.

That’s why I don’t enjoy spending my fannish time and energy having debates with people. The way I always see these things is that I have my feelings and opinions, and other people have theirs. If I see some fan stuff I don’t necessarily agree with on my dash, I keep scrolling, and if it’s something I feel extra salty or opinionated about I’ll shitpost in my own space about it away from people. But tl;dr: space is for me and my feelings and I guard it very jealously because for a long time I didn’t have any space at all to safely express anything, and the second I feel like that’s being threatened I get triggered because of my history. I want discussions about things I like, that make me happy. Favorite characters I might have in common with someone, or a storyline that resonated, etc. The other stuff I can’t do, because it’s too painful, and I have too much trauma wrapped up in it. I know this might sound weird to a lot of people but that’s just where I’m at. 

[lolfunnykpop]

jaddasroots

  you're 15?!??

youve gotten old smh

so old, and college sucked the rest of the energy out  😂

[owlespresso]

can i get some uhhhhhhh tender NSFW Zenos/fem!Wol pls

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“Tender” and “Zenos” aren’t two words often used together. Looking back on your first interactions with the man, it’s no wonder why.

However, once Zenos truly comes to treasure you as a coveted treasure and companion, he can become decidedly delicate. 

It’s small gestures. Opening doors for you, pulling out your chair. He’s one of the world’s most vicious hunters but he was raised to be both a warrior and a refined Garlean gentleman.

He likes holding your hand. Or pressing your hands together. Seeing how much smaller yours are in comparison to his is both satisfying and endearing. He’s massive, so there aren’t many people who have hands as large as his. Even if you’re a male, max height au’ra, he’s still got you beat by a few inches or more.

If you’re an au’ra, viera or miqo’te, he likes to put your ears/tail. If he’s feeling feisty, he might pull a bit to see your reaction.

Likes using his status to get you whatever you want. Knowing he’s provided for you fills him with a unique sense of satisfaction he doesn’t get anywhere else. 

Will want you to sit on his lap. He likes resting his chin on top of your head or shoulder. His arms wrap around your waist to bring you close, eager to have you pressed tight against him. Your closeness fills him with a sense of serenity, of fullness he hasn’t quite experienced before. 

He lets you brush and touch his hair. In fact, he’ll want you to do it nearly every day! Expect him to lay his head in your lap and give you a coy, expectant glance. He might tell you what he wants once or twice, but you pick up on the signs pretty quick.

[elfyourmother]

“And I you, my love,” Gisele said, burying her nose in the elegant line of Ysayle’s neck, clinging to her waist, drinking in that familiar scent of lavender and wildflowers which always clung to her skin. The depths of yearning that so simple a thing stirred in Gisele startled even herself. She planted a quick kiss upon Ysayle’s neck, which elicited another pleased sigh. -- This bit right here chief

Elezen necks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[elfyourmother]

YANKEE ZOS CANDLE ASKDJAKSDJAKSDJNASD

THE WHOLE BOTTOM OF VARIS FACE IS A SICILIAN LEMON EASY MELTCUP 

TELL ME I’M LYING

(thank gods zenos looks like his mama)

[badymaru]

mfw im watching you from my xiv side blog reblogging like its 2012 all over again

OH MY GOD AJ

GET OUT OF HERE I'M HAVING A MENTAL CRISIS NO ONE IS SUPPOSED TO REMEMBER ME FROM THE OLDEN DAYS

[intern-seraph]

#i thought people were talking about the hockey trophy/ is so funny to me because on tiktok i got so many vids of yt girls going INSANE for stanley cups. deadass some girl made a tiktok of her like laminating the wrapper to preserve it. never understood the hype and thankfully i didnt so now i dont have lead poisoning!

not having a tiktok is keeping me from popping a blood vessel on the daily 👍 but the COMEDY i'm missing out on... A GIRL LAMINATED THE FUCKING WRAPPER??? i also don't get the hype, it's... basically a thermos?? weren't people like this about hydroflasks, too? (but maybe slightly less unhinged)

[elfyourmother]

my mom got me into black lady sketch show and hertep never fails to leave me in tears

SEE! SEE!!