#jae's rant

[princessdong]

I have a gahmi harry potter au, a highschool bunny jiu au, the game of thrones au with Kim Lip, a request for Ryujin... And I am trying to finish all of it.

[princessdong]

Pup makes me wanna be friends with all the kpop writers (even those who write for bgs, because even though I don't write for them they're great too).

[princessdong]

Should I make a quick list of concepts about Game of Thrones for those who didn't see Game of Thrones so everyone can understand equally? (And also for those who saw it, because it's been a long time ago, I had to go back on some things because I forgot some)

[princessdong]

Okay so, I'm thinking about writing again (you won't believe how much it helps to my stress/possible anxiety in my therapist words, not mine)

So, I'm going to finish that one hybrid Dreamcatcher (I won't say which member is specifically) thing I never finished, and depending on what y'all say, I will turn it into a complete fic (yes, I'm aware that I have neglected two other fics, that's how I work, sorry)

[princessdong]

Okay so, I've been going through some rough stuff, and I decided that I'm no longer posting on either this account or @jisoosinsomnia . I would've love to keep writing on this, but I'm going through really rough stuff on here.

For all those people I've known here, I want to tell y'all are amazing, I'm sorry I couldn't stick closer, and I hope all of you keep doing all the amazing work you always do.

I'm not deleting the accounts, just because people might want to read, and I hope someday I can come back.

[princessdong]

I have a lot of things to keep writing, but each one of them are looking back at me and saying they refuse they'll be written until the heat ends.

[princessdong]

I'm working on the broken links of my masterlist, if anyone noticed one please let me know.

[princessdong]

This is kinda a rant so y'all don't need to read it, it might be triggering to some, so if toxic relationships are triggering, please don't read this.

I've been trying for a while to write, to get something from any ongoing project, and I was kinda stunned to realize that I couldn't, that it felt like a chore, that no matter what I did it wasn't enough (not long enough, not good enough). Fear not, I'm not saying goodbye to this.

It recently dawned upon me, after ending a long time toxic friendship, that my problem is that I've lost my voice, and my writing became more of a “Please that friend, no matter what you have to do in writing to do so”. But now that I don't have anyone to please it feels like I've forgotten what it was like to write in a way that felt like myself.

What I'm trying to say with this (besides getting it out of my system) is that right now my blog is gonna become an aesthetic mess, no posting at all, or posting a thousand of short stuff, any kind of au's or none at all, because I'm trying to find myself as a writing, so I'm sorry? I guess, for the chaos this is gonna be